•After YouTube•Vikkstar Fiction

spider webs

Visitation was over and Ethan left with tears. I know I fucked up I just wish I could fix this. I never fix anything , I just fuck everything up.

A graud escorted me back to the recreation center. The entire time we were walking I could only think of Ethan and how I could never get him back. He hates me so much. I know there's no way of getting him back.

Once I got back I sat in a corner and waited for the announcements to tell us what we were doing next. The announcements make me feel like a robot living by commands.

The corner had spider webs and dust. I spent around thirty minutes staring at them. I thought about the spiders that made them. How they put time and effort into making the  webs all for it to be ruined by someone. Much like me , I put time and effort into making videos for nothing. I was taken away from YouTube and now I feel like all of my videos were for nothing.

The announcements took me out of my thoughts. It told everyone to the dinning area meaning it was lunch. I left my corner and joined the group of people heading to lunch.

The dinning area looked fuller than this morning. I guess more people were admitted to the hospital. I saw more people who suffered from anorexia and schizophrenia.

I sat by myself and waited for food.
My acquaintance sat beside me and set down my tray of food. Salad, fruit and water. I had no appetite for it.

I felt rude for not asking the man's name so as he was drinking his I asked him what his name was. He goes by Ty, he hates his actual name and everyone calls him by his nickname.