Chapter 9: Kisses, Feelings, and Misunderstandings!
---Joey's POV:
This was it. SHANE kissed ME! I didn't even lean in, it was all him. At this moment, we were kissing, and I knew I was DEFINITELY still gay, but only for him. His lips were soft. Then I realized, why was he kissing me? Was he messing around since he new I liked him? Was he doing this for fun, or didn't mean it, or was he just caught up in the heat of the moment? Because 3 days ago I was rejected, and now we are sitting together with the one I have fell for kissing me. It didn't last long though because I pushed away...
Shane: Wha- I'm sorry Joey, I didn't mean to kiss you, but I think... I think I might be -
Joey: Shane just drop the act, now!
Shane: What are you talking about?!
Joey: Look, 3 days ago, I was rejected when you told me how you loved Lisa after I just confessed my feelings for you and you said you didn't feel that way about me... And now, you just kissed me? Why- why do you want to hurt me again? Are you doing this to make fun of me?!
I asked him, I was hurt, honestly. I thought he didn't care. He probably doesn't.
Shane: No, Joey it's not like that seriously! Nooo! I kissed you because I - well I - Umm...
Joey: Exactly... Shane I'm sorry, but I think you should leave....
Shane: Joey, no please, just let me explain!
Joey: There's nothing to explain...
Shane: Look Joey, I - I ...
Joey: Shane please, just leave, for good. I can't be messed around with like this anymore. Please, just go...
Shane: Joey... I'm not messing around!
Shane's eyes searched my face for a sense of understanding and I wanted to believe him, but was hurt. 3 days ago he said he loved someone else and rejected my feelings, now he kissed me. I cant take this anymore. I looked at Shane, then looked down at the floor.
Shane: Fine... I'll go. Look I'm sorry for everything...
Shane's POV: I cant believe Joey didn't give me a chance to explain myself, but I get it, it did make sense. I just realized, literately today, that I was starting to feel something for Joey. And it's true, 3 days ago I didn't feel the same way and I was in love with Lisa. But that was 3 days ago. Today is different. But I get why he is mad. I should've just told him. Told him how I felt. He still probably wouldn't want anything to do with me. We had just made up and then I ruined it by kissing him. Why does all of this have to be my fault? I walked out of his room and outside the apartment. I got in my car and started to drive away.
Joey's POV: Shane left... He really left... Man, I didn't want him to now that I think of it, I - I love him. What, did I just say that?! Wow, I guess I did. I was gay for Shane Dawson and I - I love him. I should've listened to him. What if he did really start to like me? Pshh.. that's crazy though, I mean, he's not gay, he has Lisa and he told me that 3 days ago... Maybe everything changed. Could Shane actually be falling for me? That kiss.. that kiss was incredible. Every moment was perfect until I pushed away. Goodness, why did I do that? Now he wont want to talk to me again. I should've listened to him. I didn't even give him a chance to explain to me. Maybe he was gay...? I hope he is. Ughh! I need Shane. I love him. I really do. Now, everything is different...
