CHAPTER 5
[[Logan POV]]
It just came out. And I seriously didn't want it to.
"Anberlin, I love you."
My eyes start to blur, and I can feel tears coming. Why am I crying? Why am I even admitting this? Damn it, why did I even tell her we needed to talk? I should've just kept 'hating' her.
She looks confused. Probably because of the tear that just dripped down my cheek.
"W-why're you crying? This is a good thing, right!?" She asks with fear in her voice, afraid something is going to ruin us again. Now I think she is going to start crying. That's the last thing I want.
"No- I mean yes! but don't get upset Berlin. It's okay. You know that I'm just overly emotional sometimes. But before we start making out in storage closets and confesssing our love for eachother, can we just play it out as friends for a while?" I ask. I'm not prepared for a full on relationship. Especially a relationship with Anberlin, my childhood bestfriend who hasn't talked to me in 3 1/2 years.
Anberlin smiles and giggles a little bit. I missed that. "Yes, that's fine Logan," she says, swiping a single, small tear from below her eye, "I would love that." She finishes and goes in for a hug. I also missed her hugs, that's for sure.
After we both pull away from the hug, her phone vibrates. "Ugh It's my aunt," she says with dissapointment, "I have to run a bunch of errands for her.. I'll text you later Logan." She grabs her bag and hugs me again.
"Well.. Have fun, I guess.." I say wishing she didn't have to go. She smiles and with that, she's gone again. I'm just glad that there's hope that it's not forever this time.
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It's midnight. My phone buzzes and I figure it's Berlin.
"Hey. Want to hang out and be lame together? I'm bored and definitely not tired!"
We used to do this in 8th grade. one of us would text the other late at night and we'd sneak out and be dumb together at the park or whatever.
"Sure! Meet at the park? :)" Is what I reply with.
I make sure my parents are sleeping. I may be 17 years old, and it's the weekend, but my parents are still the most over protective, cautious ones out there. Plus I know deep down my mother doesn't trust Anberlin.
After I make sure they're sleeping, I grab my hoodie and slip on my shoes. I grab my phone and slip out the back door because the front door is really loud.
As I am approaching the park, I see a big smile light up Anberlin's face. I have missed so many things about her, that being one of them.
"So hows your night been, huh?" She asks with that smile still strung across her face.
"Meh. Boring. And you?"
"Umm long. Ha, my aunt kept nagging me to hurry up and get home with the groceries for dinner!"
We take a long walk through the park, talking about the past couple years. not much has changed for either of us, but we still needed to catch up. We also talk about how we should publicize our new/modified 'friendship' since I wouldn't want her to lose the only people she has left, I guess.. Not that I really support her staying friends with all of those people who probably talk shit behind her back 24/7.
As our legs get tired of walking, running, and wrestling around in the grass, we find a larger field of freshly mowed grass and plop down in the middle of it. The cold grass on my neck sends shivers down my spine.
[[ANBERLIN'S POV]]
Laying here in the grass next to Logan is nice. We're silent, fascinated by the stars. It's like 1:30 am right now but I never want this moment to end. It's one of those moments where it's total silence but not awkward at all. Logan is the only person I've been able to have moments like that with.
Suddenly everything is wet! There are sprinklers on! Oh my god, We are instantly out of our trance and running trying to find dry ground. Logan is laughing is ass off and I am squealing and laughing. Why didn't we think about this? But I honestly don't care that I am soaked. I'm having fun with Logan which is all that matters. We are kind of chasing eachother around and dancing in the sprinklers instead of avoiding them. I slip on the wet grass and fall on my ass, so Logan helps me up. I can't help but stare into his sparkly ocean blue eyes. I know he doesn't want a relationship right now but who can resist those eyes?
He looks away, biting his lip. "I- I-.. I'm s-sorry.." I stammer. I always fuck things up like that. Guys ask me to take things slow? Instead I stare into their dreamy eyes in hopes that they'll kiss me. I'm so dumb.
"No, it's okay. It's like 2 though, and we're soaked. We should probably start heading back." He says. It sucks that we have to seperate, once again, but we'll see eachother on Monday.
He decided to walk me home, even though it's ice cold and we are soaking wet. He didn't get his hoodie wet though because he left it on a bench at the park, on the section that doesn't have sprinklers so he let me wear it to stay a bit warmer. He's so gentlemen-like.
As we approach my front door, we both stop. I turn toward him and this time, he looks into my eyes. He cups my face with his hands, and kisses me. It surprised me though, since I wasn't really expecting it until he gave me that look. I smile, hug him, return his sweater to him, then head inside to get into some warmer, and dry, clothes.
I hate the thought that he had to walk all the way to his house in the cold, but I think he'll manage.
As I am stripping out of my wet clothes, all I can think about was that kiss. As it's on my mind all I can do is smile. I get into a warm hoodie and pajama pants and lay in my bed. As I drift off to sleep, still, the only thing on my mind is Logan and that kiss.
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(A/N): Heyy well idk this chapter was interesting I guess.. and cute.. finally for once they aren't arguing or whatever. idk I had bad writers block but then this kind of came to me.. Kind of just a filler I guess because I'm trying to think of a big event that would change things but nothing is coming to mind..
well i mean things are coming to mind, but I don't know how to work them into the current story line (I dont have all this pre planned out, I'm literally just making it up as I type. Thats just how I like to make my fanfics lol)
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-Angie
