How to love (Rory regan x reader/oc)

Were all killers in the end

Your pov

The recruits and me were sitting in Rory's work shop. I was sitting on one of the table kinda toward the back. Trying to get my mind sorted. They knew about Oliver now, maybe I could just come out with it. I mean, wasn't it obvious? I told them several times I was part of the league, maybe they assumed I had killed before. Maybe they didn't though.....
Rory come to the table I'm at and offers me a drink of something.
"What is this?" I ask him taking it from him.
"Regan family schnapps recipe. It's strong and a little sweet just like you." He says smileing at me. I shrug and take a gulp. It was definitely strong.... didn't know about sweet though.
" I thought we could use some considering the circumstances.
Would you care for some?" Rory ask Evelyn holding some out for her.
"Uh, Rory, she's 17." Curtis says slightly objecting.
" So? My dad was giving me this stuff when I was 11." He says laughing slightly. I smile and drink some more and lean my head onto the wall.
"And what a fine weirdo you turned out to be." Rene says drinking a little himself.
"Look, If this little meeting is because we learned Oliver is a killer, I got news for you. It's not news." Curtis says to us all.
"Look. Killing Damien Darhk and Church's guys is one thing, but having a secret kill list" Rene starts. I scowl slightly.
"Yeah, that he never even told us about." Evelyn adds. I hold down an urge to agree why he shouldn't have to bear his soul to us if he doesn't want to.
" It's something completely different." Rene agrees with her.
"Well, what's not different is him not telling us stuff." Rory says, I flinch inwardly at that.
"Haven't you noticed when it comes to information sharing there seems to be two different teams?" Evelyn asks us. Everyone nods.
"It's only gotten worse since Diggle's been back." Curtis says looking around.
"Make up your mind, guys.
Are you pissed because Oliver killed people or that he doesn't tell us everything?" Rene asks us mad and confused.
"How about both? How about I'm pissed that the guy who only shares the important information with his inner circle used to be a serial killer?" Evelyn says back annoyed.
"Which, again, he didn't tell us about." Rory says pointing out the facts.
" We all want to believe in Oliver's crusade, but how are we supposed to follow him into his battle when his first instinct is to hide the truth from us.
First it's "I used to be a serial killer.
" What's tomorrow's revelation gonna be? I don't know how to operate with that in the back of my mind." Evelyn says throwing our own feelings into view. I had enough to handle and I get off the table and walk out of the room, never having had said a word.

*at arrow cave*
3rd person pov

"Haven't seen you do that in quite some time." John says to Oliver as Oliver shoots another ball.
"Wanted to take my mind off things." Oliver explains as he keeps going.
" I don't think they make enough tennis balls for that." John says laughing, "Where's Felicity with the list of potential targets?" He asks.
"She's working on it." Oliver tells his friend
" Something tells me that's not the only thing weighing on you.
How are the recruits?" John asks Oliver.
"Taking a little timeout. I expected them to be upset with me, and that's fine, but, John, they seemed horrified." Oliver says to John.
" I wouldn't call it that. Just a bit surprised. " John says to Oliver in a reassuring tone. " (y/n) was fine with it"
"That's because she knew about it" Oliver takes a look at (y/n), who is over at the training area and is currently working on her aim with knifes.
" Look on the bright side.
It does show how far you've come." John says supportingly.
" Except I haven't.
I killed Damien Darhk, and I haven't stopped since." Oliver says to john, "and (y/n) started killing again too."
" Well, don't forget who you're talking to, man.
I know firsthand what it's like to be a murderer.
I know the difference between a good kill and one made out of pure rage.
You killed Damien Darhk, Oliver, because you had to." John says trying to convince his friend
" You took down Church's men because you had to.
The list was something different." John finishes
" Well, Prometheus is just dredging all that up again.
I want to move forward.
I'm trying to move forward, but I I feel stuck." Oliver says watching (y/n) now, who had giving up on the knifes and was holding one of her old swords, starring at it with a blank look.
" I think you're being hard on yourself, which is a bit annoying because that's usually mine and Felicity's job, but, Oliver, in that official capacity I think you are moving forward." John tells Oliver
" : I need a cleanup on aisle 12, and also, I got a list of potential victims." Felicity says over the speaker.

"I know you're all upset with me, so thank you for showing up despite that." Oliver says looking around the room
"Well, we were afraid you would kill us if we didn't. Too soon?" Curtis try's and fails to joke
" I was able to cross-reference the list with the city census, nailing it down to 6 potential targets." Felicity explains to us.
" How do we know who he'll hit? " Rene ask Oliver.
"We don't. In order to cover that much ground, we have to split up and each take one potential target. One person gets two people." Oliver explains to us.
" Whoever spots Prometheus first, call it in, and we all converge. " Oliver states out orders.
"Is everything ok? Oliver asks the recruits.
"No, it's not. For a long time, I blamed you for my parents dying, that you were responsible for leaving them to suffocate in one of Damien Darhk's testing chambers. It took a lot for me to come work with you.
Knowing all this It doesn't make it any easier." Evelyn says to Oliver.
" Evelyn, are you sure you should be out there tonight?" Felicity asks her with concern.
"Yes, I am because I'm doing this, protecting people for me, not for you." Evelyn tells Oliver.
" one quick question, who is going to be the extra person? And who are they going with?" Curtis asks Oliver. Oliver looks around.
" that depends." Oliver says briskly.
"On what?" I ask Oliver ready to get out of here.
" on you." Oliver turns to look at me. "Are you bringing your swords or your arrows?" My breath catches slightly as I think. I stopped useinfb my swords when I stopped killing, but I had killed recently, did it really matter anymore?
"My swords." I say confirming what Oliver thought.
" your with Curtis then." Oliver says as he walks off to get changed. While everyone else goes to the manikins I walk off to my special room to grab my swords and old outfit. If I'm going out with my swords, I'm going out with my assassin outfit. (Up top)