[The Love I Never Gave] Astro Love Story

My Tears Won't stop

Park Minhyuk's POV:

It all started in the beginning of high school, I'm not really sure how it happened,
but there I was, staring again at the cruel reality that was placed right in front of me.

It should have just been me making new friends, getting good grades, putting dancing as top priority and making dumb mistakes that will later lead to who I become.

But like always, life doesn't make anything easy.

Of all the people I could have fallen in love with, I ended up falling in love with a boy, he was like me, a guy who liked boys, but unlike me, that boy

Was already in a relationship.

Great .

I didn't want to fall in love with him honestly,

but I signed and excepted the fact that my crush will never bother to look at me the same way, not the same way as he does with him.

With the loving eyes that always seem to say

" I want to stay with you forever, you are my everything ".

To be fair I myself never understood why my crush,
Jinwoo,
would ever want to be in an relationship with that guy.

He clearly has no interest in being a relationship.

He was using Jinjin!

Why couldn't he see that?

I was frustrated and angry at his decision to stay with a bastard like that.

He literally is the definition of player.

I just wanted to yell and punch the shit out of that guy!

My friend Moonbin tells me that I should just give up and except that my love will never be returned,

but that can't happen because I can't walk back on emotions, it's too late to stop these emotions.

So now I'm screaming inside when I see him and Jinjin together, the inside of my stomach twist with jealousy and the anger fills my heart with the bitterness of being hopeless.

Every day I always get surrounded by the thought of how I should have been the one who Jinwoo should have fallen in love with.

But I knew full well that's not how love worked .

So all that takes me to the place I am now,
standing in silence and just watching Jinjin cry his heart out on this rainy day.

His cries echo and it seem like everybody around me and him can't see his pain as the tears get mixed it with the rain.

This all makes things painfully funny when the news reporter had said just a few days ago that it would be sunny and had no chance of raining .

I swallowed down the urge to cry as I try to forget the words Jinjin said to me,
but the unfamiliar words that soon became an insult and took over whatever urge I had tried to hide.

I gave up trying, every inch screamed to give up, the sight of love, that I believed could not be erased or replaced.

I let the tears stream down my face... Aren't we so similar?
I thought bitterly .

A/n:  this is technically an epilogue, so the first chapter will be out soon !