[The Love I Never Gave] Astro Love Story

The love eyes never gave

A letter from Sanha,

Dear Minhyuk,

You asked me a few days ago what was wrong, and I had replied that I was fine. Being the best friend you are, you told me that if I have something on my mind I could just write everything on a piece of paper and let it all out. I'm gonna take your advice and maybe after I write this I could give this to you or maybe burn it...

So here is the thing:

I'm gay.

Yes, and I know that you are too,

You probably realized that before you moved here, but I won't ask.

And guess what?

I fell in love with the president, Lee Dongmin.

Yes, again I like him,

And it's not some silly crush.

Crushes are unreachable in a sense,
But my love for Dongmin won't ever change or fade.

I know for sure he's not gay.

He has only dated girls,

And had only liked girls.

Tell me Minhyuk,

Why is that love is unfair?

He'll never give me love,

And I will always be unsatisfied.

I'm sorry for loving you, Dongmin.

You know who I am,

Yet you don't.

After writing this, Sanha sat at his table in the dorm. Thinking back about all the things he could have done before Dongmin started to go on dates with other girls.

It's unfair Sanha wrote,

I hate myself. Please tell me I am not I love with him.

Angry with himself and the fact that he could not face his own feelings. His anger consisted mostly how he was facing a crisis at this moment and how he really tell someone. Why couldn't he tell someone?  It was easier to say it then to do it
let alone confess them, Sanha grabbed his papers and ran out if his dorm,
Not caring that he didn't have a jacket or his keys to his dorm, he slammed his door shut and just ran on his campus until he couldn't run anymore.

But even then, he just started walking and with his luck
It started to rain.

Sanha stopped walking altogether, he just stood there.

Him in the rain with just his school uniform.

He had left the blazer of his uniform in the dorm.

He shivered at the cold and continued to walk even though he had no idea where he was, he had never adventured off anywhere on campus, only walking to his classes with the guidance of his friends.

After walking around Sanha noticed that he was going off campus and walking into the small town near the high school .

But with his bad luck, he had managed to see Dongmin inside a cafe laughing at something a girl in front of him had said.

His heart started to twist in an uncomfortable way, his heart was throbbing and his eyes tried to look anywhere but the two.

Shutting his eyes tight he turned around really quick and walked the opposite direction.

It's not my problem, he's happy.

He's happy,

He's happy,

But am I happy for him?

No, never.

His support, Sanha whispers.

He needs to have a talk with Minhyuk.

Just then he realized that he was lost, and he was dumb enough not to grab anything. Sanha groaned. He walked to a nearby bench and sat down on the wet metal bench. It didn't matter anymore if his clothes were dirty because it was already wet from the rain.

Sanha decided to look around at his surroundings. There weren't many people out because of the rain, but there were a few, the reason mostly being that they were couples.

Honestly Sanha wasn't that mad, he was just tired, like so tired that he wanted to give up on everything.

Not that he had a lot in the first place.

While skimming the face of the couples, Sanha recognized one of the man's face.

And it wasn't Dongmin,

But Myungjun .

The said man was talking with this lady, who looked younger yet older in this mysterious way.

From a glance both look like a match made in heaven, but if you look closer, Myungjun's face was scrunched up in an angry way, like he was very frustrated at what the girl had said or just didn't like what she was doing.

And Sanha felt really curious, he had never spoke to Myungjun alone, always with Jinwoo and Minhyuk with Moonbin on occasions .

He didn't really understand the tense atmosphere whenever Jinwoo wasn't around, and Myungjun wasn't really the type to just cheat on someone. No matter how many times Minhyuk said that, he just couldn't see it.

Looking at Myungjun again, Sanha decided to interrupt whatever the two were doing.

As Sanha did, he noticed that Myungjun was tense and had relaxed  immediately after he interrupted them. The girl looked pissed at the interruption, but because she wanted to show that she had matters she stopped and excused herself and make eye contact with Myungjun before leaving.
This bitch thought Sanha didn't notice, well she was hella wrong.

"Thanks."

"No problem."

"Hyung."

"What is it?"

"When will you tell Jinwoo what you're hiding? I could of I wanted to, but it's not my place to tell him and I don't really know what's going on between you two..."

Myungjun looked surprised at my sudden bold statement. He then laughed and replied.

" Yeah, I will. But first I need to sort out everything. All I need it time."

But both knew that was a lie,

               

                                          Because time waits for no one.