The Unimaginable

Good

That wasn't goodbye, right?

It feels like it. It's really supposed to be. This wont be good for me or him. Yet, it still hurts a little, knowing that we shouldn't be together when it feels so right when we are. Maybe he doesn't feel the same way and thats why he was so eager to leave?

"Whats a matter Kalia?"

"Hmm?" I look up at the mirror and at the reflection of Carlos behind me. I shake my head and turn to him. "Im fine. What makes you ask?"

He makes a disapproving grunt. "Don't bullshit me. I know you like the back of my hand."

I keep quiet and walk around him, out of the bathroom, throwing my body on my bed.

"Whats on today's agenda?"

"You mean tonights?"

I raise myself up a little and rest on my elbows. "You're irritating. You know what I meant."

Carlos looks at me and smiles slightly before walking towards the bed and laying down next to me.
"I can't help it. Honestly, nothing gives me more pleasure in life then irritating you."

I roll my eyes and lay back flat again.
"I believe you."

Its quiet for two seconds before we both burst out laughing.

---

"Yo!"

I turn my head slightly over my shoulder to see Greg jogging over to me, then look back at my work.

"What happened to you the other night?"

"What do you mean?"

"I meannn," He pauses which makes me look up at him in curiosity. "You and Sofia? Or I think its actually you and Kalia?" And with that he wiggles his eye brows and smiles slyly at me.

However for some reason, l don't return it. I don't really want to talk about it, let alone think about it.

"Helloooo, what's got your tongue man?" Greg's no longer looking playful, more concerned.

I shake my head and stand walking around the desk and more into the gym, Greg following. "I don't know. What do you want to know? There isn't much to tell." I reach the weights and look to see which one I feel like doing today. None to be honest.

"You started with one and ended with another. Finn said you chased after Kalia? I didn't think you chased and that it normally was the other way around."

He was right, that is normally the case but not with her. I would do it again and again, especially after last night. But I dont tell him that, instead I shrug and begin lifting the weights.

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2 months later.

"Yes, thats it! Right there! Oh my gosh this feels so good!" These are all lies. I say the same couple sentences every time I'm having bad sex and lately its been alot. Ever since Dimitri its never been the same, which sucks. Ive been trying to rid myself of even the thought of him so much that Ive been sleeping with some of my own mafia men, that are claimed to be beasts in bed by the girls that I've spoken to, but boy were those bitches wrong. Dimitri was a beast, could be a beast, my beast. No, no, no, pull yourself together Kalia, no more thoughts about him remember? That's why you're in this position, literally.

"Did you like it?" The cute boy on top of me asked with sweet doe brown eyes. "I sure as hell did. Are we gunna do it again anytime soon?"

I push him off of me and he makes a 'oomph' noise when he lands on the floor.  "Probably not Alex." I quickly put my top on and stumble with my pants almost falling before Alex catches my elbow stabling me. I look up at him and smile slightly before looking away and continuing my escape.

"Why not though? You really didn't like it?" He sounds upset. Dear gosh, men are the worst. I sit on a nearby chair and begin to put on my shoes ignoring him.

"Common Kalia, please just answer me for once."

I snap my head up and look at him. Don't get me wrong, there isn't anything wrong with Alex and not really with the sex either...he's just too good for me. He's so gentle and sweet and caring. He's a 6'1 foot guy that I know only means the best when he looks like he's going to make things worse.

I stand and walk to him. I lift my hand and run my slender fingers down his cheek and gently across his lips. I can feel him watching me but I wasn't planning on looking up at him.

"Alex," I sigh and look down more. "You're just a distraction from what I really want."

He doesn't respond and I cant blame him. I finally look up at him but he's staring at me with indifferent eyes. He smiles and pushes a strand of my hair behind my ear.

"You aren't angry?"

He raises his eyebrows in questioning, more playfulness then seriousness. "Why would I be? You don't owe me anything and we aren't exclusive," it was then his turn to touch my lips and I'll just let you know, I felt some type of way. A good type of way, not the way I felt with Dimitri but something really close that was making me feel better already. Maybe he was what I needed? A little bit of good like Alex.  He chuckles noticing my slightly flushed state and dips his head to meet my lips. I return his kiss and melt into his hold on me. Maybe I could also be good for Alex?  He pulls back and smiles sweetly, "unless you want to be exclusive."