Broken Tears

Chapter 4 - Old Flames

   I decided not to go with Hailey and Josh, because after the message I got from Luke shocked me. I knew I wasn't going to be able to go through all night without thinking about it, I just needed to be alone.

   I clicked on Hailey's number and she answered before I could even think straight. "I'm so glad you called! I was just about to call you! I'm so excited." she shouted off so loud I had to move my phone away from my ear. "I'm sorry Hales but my mom and dad wont let me, me and Shane got into a huge fight and they said I wasn't going to be able to go" I lied. She sighed, I could tell there was disappointment in her voice. "Okay, I'll just talk to you later." "Bye" I said before hanging up the phone.

   I laid back on my bed, thinking about all that I had been through in the last two years. The good, the bad, all of it. My eyes started to water when I realized my mind went back to that text from Luke. I rolled over and grabbed my phone and read it for the 8th time.

   "Kallie, I'm sorry. I'm sorry for everything I've ever put you through. I know I f*cked up, messed up big time. But I love you, I always have and always will. You're the only person that made my days better. The only person I could count on. I need you, I'll do anything. You're the best thing that has ever happened to me. Can we try to work this out? I want to spend the rest of my life with you. Please."

    Just like that tears starting streaking down my face, that's the first time in a long time I actually cried, hard. I didn’t know what to do, or what to think. Could I forgive him? Or was it just impossible to do? We had so much history together. But I don’t think I could be with someone that hurt me so much. I threw my phone across my bed, tears still falling down. Kept replaying the text in my head.

    I picked up my phone off my pillow and replied. "I'm sorry but I cant do this, you hurt me so bad". I felt like I was dieing when I pushed send. I couldn’t take it back now, I could but maybe I didn’t want to. I pushed the power button and turned it off and then turned my light off. I laid there as I cried myself to sleep.

   The next day I spent my whole day in bed, watching Nicholas Sparks movies and eating ice cream. I kept my phone off, because I didn't want to talk to anyone, especially Luke.

  I turned it back on to make sure my grandma didn’t call me. "Kallie, I really do love you" Luke text me again. That's when I started crying hard again. Not because I thought he was lying, but because I knew he was telling the truth.

    That whole Sunday I spent in my bed room. No TV on or anything. I just wanted to feel good about myself, but I didn’t every time I read that message I got more angry at myself. I knew I still loved him, so why did I act like I didn’t? I threw my phone against my door & it shattered. At that point I didn’t care. I didn’t care about anything.

   My mom came to my room wondering what the noise was. I told her I didn’t want to talk to anyone

. As soon as she walked out of the room, words came out of my mouth "But Luke" I said in a low whisper. It didn’t catch me by surprise that I said it, because I did want to talk to him. I wanted him back. I wanted to be with him again. But I felt like I couldn’t be.

    My little brother came to my room. I didn’t tell him to get lost like I normally would of, I just didn’t have enough strength to. He sat down on the end of my bed. He just started staring out the window, like a robot. He sat there for a good three minutes before he said anything. "You know, Luke really does love you and I know you love him, why cant you guys just work it out? Your meant to be together and I'm positive about that, sure he messed up but don’t we all? just give him another chance, I bet he doesn’t screw up again" he said. I honestly couldn’t believe my little brother told me that, I just starred at him, speechless. He didn’t say another word, he stood up and walked out of my room, without looking back once.

   I pulled the covers over my head and decided a nap would be the only thing tk help. It felt like I slept three seconds when my dad bust in my room, asking me if I wanted to go with the family to go get ice cream. I told him I didn’t feel like it, maybe next time. "Okay! We'll be back in a little bit" he said as he shut the door behind him.

   I fell back asleep for what felt like 10 seconds before house the house phone woke me up. I figured my family was still home, so I let it ring, waiting until they answered. They never did, so I walked angrily to the hall way to where the extra house phone was and answered it. "Hello" I said in a sleepy/annoyed voice. "Hey Kall" I heard a voice not recognizable. "Who is this" I blurted out. "You don’t know who this is?" the boy on the phone laughed. "Well if I did, do you think I’d be asking you?" I said with an attitude. There was a long silence. Then I broke it saying "Well im not in the mood to play games, bye".  "Wait a second, this is Jordan, the one that use to live by you all our lives until I moved in 5th grade?" the unrecognizable voice started to seem recognizable. I was in shock. Jordan and I would play together everyday, all day. We were best friends. It was so weird, I never thought id talk to him again in my life. "Ohh, yeah I remember you, how are you? how did you get my number?". "Well" he started to say. "We actually moved in next door again, and your mom went to tell you that today, but she said that you told her you didn't want to talk to anyone. But I had to try to get ahold of you somehow". I sat there, not saying anything. "Well alright, but im really tired and don't feel like talking, can we talk later?" I asked. I guess he thought I was being rude, I probably was, but I couldn’t help it. "Sure” he said, “Talk to you some other time". I then hung up.

    Laid back in my bed. But I couldn’t sleep. It was the first time in a couple days I forgot about Luke. But I finally realized that the boy that I could tell absolutely anything in the world too had lived next door to me again. There was something in my body that made me want to talk to him. Ask him how he's been, ask him why he moved back. I had tons of questions, but other part of my mind was on Luke.