Ugh I feel like such shit for not posting more for this book. I don't know how many people are waiting to read more or how interested anyone is. I've just lost all of my inspiration for everything. The first time I disappeared from this book, I told myself I would continue.... then I promised myself again after disappearing again.... and now I feel like I'm letting myself down. I can't do anything right. I can't even keep a book going, a book I was so driven to write. I'm fucking up. I can't keep my life under control. I'm just stuck. I'm doing things I shouldn't be and seriously considering a permanent fix to all this shit I'm living in. I can't even continue a book... I can't even keep my grades up... I can't even keep my room clean... I can't even make real friends... I just don't know what to do. I just want this all to stop.
I'm sorry if you were genuinely enjoying my book, because I know that it sucks when you're enjoying a book and the author just stops cold turkey. I haven't been around because I've been back and forth in the hospital and school is piling and I just can't handle it all. Fuck, I don't even know why I think I owe someone and explanation. I just feel so pathetic for not being able to continue a simple fucking book. I relapsed two nights ago after almost 8 months cutting free. I feel so fucking pathetic. Just remove my book from your library if it made its way there. I don't deserve it.
