I wake up nice an early and decided to go for a jog, it always makes me feel so refreshed and seeing as I haven't been to a gym for like 3 months I need some kind of work out. As I go through the park on the way back I notice Conor with a girl at the little cafe, she puts her hand of his and he doesn't move them straight away and when he does it's because he takes a sip of his drink. I all of a sudden feel like shit, what the hell.. what was last night about if he was seeing someone else.. now i know it was only a kiss but stupid me though it meant something. I get home and have a hot shower, and get changed. I've nothing on today until later, I'm going to lunch with a couple of friends. I decide on something casual.
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I can't shake this feeling off, I really like Conor.
I make myself a coffee and check my social media's and reply to a few emails. I then check my phone I have 2 messages.
One from Joe. 'Zoe said you was meeting for lunch and I was wondering if you was ok with Me, Poppy and Sean can Tag along with Zalfie? I understand if not, let me know'
I text back ' Of course it's fine see you later xx'
I then read a text from Conor 'Morning beautiful, I had such a great time yesterday, I was wondering if you was free this afternoon? Maybe we can plan that cover xx'
I honestly don't know what to write back to that. I ignore it.
I go for lunch with my friends and I had such a great time, it certainly distracted me. Joe has asked me to do a video with him in the next couple of weeks and I can't wait. I feel like we could actually go back to how things were before we hooked up. I really have missed him.
I just sit down when there is a knock at the door.
' oh hey Jack, are you ok? Cassie isn't here, she won't be home for a couple of days'
'Oh I know, she said, I'm here to see you, are you alright?'
'Yep I'm fine so you want a drink?'
' I would love a drink Leela, wine?'
'Ooooo yes! It's never to early for wine' I laugh.. I know what this will be a Leela and Jack catch up over a bottle of wine or two! Rosé our drink..
'So.. Leela, I hear your doing a video with my Pal Joe?' 'You heard right' 'How bloody rude' 'Aww jack are you jealous!' 'Nope, but I do think you should be on my channel' 'Fine' I laugh We seem to be having a great catch up!
'So, Lee how comes you didn't reply to Conor?' I say nothing, I let a breath and look away. 'Lee what's wrong? Do you regret kissing him? I know he doesnt' 'No, it's not that' 'What's happened then? You seem to like him yesterday' 'It's nothing Jack, drop it ok' I get and take my glass to the sink. 'Leela, I know his my brother but you know you can talk to me' 'Ok ok, I went for a jog this morning' I stop talking as Jack gets this grin on his face. I raise my eyebrows at him. 'Sorry, continue' ' I'm trying to keep fit' I say nudging him. 'Whilst I was jogging i saw Conor in the cafe in the park with a girl' 'So...' 'So he looked very close to her and she had his hand on hers and they both looked cosy, I don't want to come in between him and his girl friend Jack, I feel awful about last night' 'Leela Conor doesn't have a girl friend' 'Well his obviously seeing someone, I don't want to get in the way, plus I like one women kinda guys if you get me'
We continue talking for a while. Jacks very quiet, I feel abit bad telling him about Conor and that girl. I feel like it's ruined our evening.
'Babe I'm sorry I've ruined tonight' 'Oh Lee don't be silly, I'm just trying to think of who this girl is' I describe her to him and he goes quiet. 'Look I'll go talk to him and I'll see you tomorrow yer?' 'Ah no you don't have to do that' 'It's fine, night babe' he says giving me a big hug. ' night Jack thanks for coming over'
Mia comes home and gets ready and heads straight back out for a date with Casper and I have a deep bubble bath and a face mask. Then I get in to bed and watch a film, I must have fallen asleep because I woke up to a blank screen. I switch the telly off and go to sleep!
