Walk with me

Chapter 9

There I was, in the hospital again. Except I was hooked up to all these tubes and wires. I had a cannula in my nose to help me breath and I had blood pressure thing on me and I had an Iv drip. I looked over as much as I could with all these tubes and wires not to mention the pain and I saw Michael asleep in the chair. I tried talking but it came out crackly. "Mitch" It was official I could barley talk and barley move. He jumped awake and held my hand. " kell I'm so sorry I should've walked in the house with you! I almost lost you! I'm so stupid I'm sorry!" He started to cry and he hugged my hand. "I-it's ok. And what" I cleared my throat "what happened to me?" I could talk a bit better now. "You had a seizure. A part of the brain cancer that's what they told me" he looked down at the ground. "What else did they tell you?" I can feel him holding something back from me. "No. that I'm not telling you." I tried to sit up but failed. And I sighed and ripped the cannula out of my nose and closed my eyes. "That's better" Michael just looked at me. "How many days?" I asked with my eyes still closed. "Wha--"he asked as if I didn't know so I raised my voice a bit "I said how many days!" He went quiet. I sighed "I'm sorry I didn't mean to---" he cut me off "a week or two" I opened my eyes and I seen he was trying to hold back his tears and that made me cry. "Oh". He sat on my bed. "Mitch can I ask you a favour?" He nodded "I want to just die not be hooked up to machines. I want to spend the little time I have left with you doing random crap" I smiled even tho I realized I was dieing. He just looked and me and a tear rolled down his face followed by another. "Mitch please this is important to me" he nodded and smiled. "If it's what you want then I'll talk to the nurses" he got up and I heard voices outside my door, him and the nurse. All I could think about was how he's going to react when I die. The door opened "let's go then" he said and the nurse unhooked me from all of my tubes and wires and I left.
We got in his car and drove off. When we got on the highway he started speeding. "Mitch?" I was worried and he was ignoring me. "MICHAEL!" He stopped dead in the middle of where ever we were. "What" he wasn't looking at me he was looking straight ahead. He was mad. " Mitch are you mad at me?" He didn't say anything. "I wanted to spend my dieing hours with you! Geez I thought you'd be happy about that!" He looked away so his eyes were away from me all together. And it was silent. "Fine be like this" I undid my seat belt and opened the door and got out of the car and started walking with my arms folded and I started crying. Then I felt arms hug me back on and I heard crying. "Kelly no please I need you! I don't want you to die, you can't I need you!" I turned around and hugged him back. "Mitch I didn't choose to die, I didn't choose to get cancer. I'm going to quote the fault in our stars "the thing about pain is it demands to be felt" and were feeling it. I want to live! I want to grow old and have kids with you but I guess this is the fault in our stars." We sat down on the pavement and hugged and cried for about an hour.
We eventually got back on the road and drove to his house and once we were on his door step I smiled and kissed him deeply and a tear rolled down his face. I smiled and wiped it away. "Just pretend that I don't have cancer. Just for a little while". He looked at me with a pained face. "Kell how do I--" I kissed him again and this time he wrapped his arms around my waist and I wrapped my arms around his neck. He then lowered his arms and picked me up, my legs wrapping around his waist and he opened the door. He carried me to his room and he laid me on the bed and turned on one of his CDs and then gently crawled up on me holding my hands and started kissing me.
I felt like I was in heaven the way he touched my skin and kissed me. It was our first time and it was perfect.