Love is a Laserquest

Chapter 9

Dear teenage heartbreak

 I am fine. Things are unsteady but I am feeling better. Even though earth isn't my favorite place I am settling down and accepting it. 

I've come to realize that love is stupid. As stupid as it may be I can't stay away from it. It's a maze, a puzzle with missing pieces, an unfinished tale. It will never end. 

"Calm down, take a deep breath, think of something that makes you happy." That's what my therapist says to me every time we meet. I don't have anything that makes me happy.

This is the end, no happiness for me. My happiness is forced and will forever be if not a miracle changes the situation.

 Mirror mirror on the wall who's the happiest of them all? Not me, that I can assure you.

Yours Truly Jupiter

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Dear teenage heartbreak

I've just moved this day, with help from some hospital workers and my therapist I've moved to a nice small apartment where actual people live. I'm still near my old home but I couldn't stay there anymore. The flashbacks, the nightmares were too vile. 

I enter a dark room. I remember it from somewhere back in time, my mind starts to break down crashing with memories. A woman standing by the window staring mindlessly out where the sky is still clear. She turns around and starts to walk towards me. Our faces are so close that I can feel her breathing. I remember her, all my life she's been my only rock, my hope and happiness. Suddenly she dramatically falls to the floor and her breathing becomes weak and weaker by every second. Blood's coming from everywhere, surrounding her body like a shell. I realize that she's dead but it doesn't affect my position or body language. I hear a voice from upstairs chanting my name which makes me re position my body. A boy, a well known face is standing there waiting for my body to crash into his, but I can't seem to move a limb. A different girl takes place in his arms, their eyes radiates love, they don't even seem to realize that I'm in the room. I start to feel. And so I scream and cry. The pain is invincible. I am dead inside.

Let's start again, let's find happiness, let's live.

Yours Truly Jupiter