We enter his room and he gestures me to sit down on his bed, so I do. He doesn't sit down next to me but leans against a wall. "What do you want to talk about?" He asks me. "I thought I asked you a question.." I whisper not able to look at him. "Eh, yeah, uhm, right, you asked me how I see you..." He says, moving his body uncomfortably. I look up at him and see that he is blushing while standing insecure against the wall. "Uhm yeah but you don't have to say it if you don't want to.." I say. He doens't reply so I change the subject. "Hey uhm Tobias..." I say, a little insecute and nervous now I really have to say what I wanted to say. "I was wondering.." Sweaty hands, warm cheeks. "What does your tattoo mean?" I ask, really nervous now. For a moment he is just staring forward, then he turns his face to me."You want to see it?" he asks me. I nodd to him. I study his fingers as they grab the hem of his shirt and pull it over his head. He reveals a super muscular back and a tattoo that covers his whole back and a little bit of his chest. In the middle of his back are the five factions. Dauntless on top, than Abnegation, Erudite, Candor and just above his jeans Amity. I can't believe my eyes, this is art on his back and it is amazing. I let my fingers run over the tattoos, "It is amazing" I tell him. He looks hurt or confused for a moment and I wish I could know what he was thinking. "Why all the factions?" I ask. He turns back to me slowly and our faces are only inches apart now. "I don't want to be just one thing." He whispers. His low voice sounds even more sexy when we're so close. "I want to be Brave, I want to be intelligent, and selfless and honest and kind." He continues. "Well I'm still working on kind." He says and he smiles at me. I look at his eyes and am facinated by its color when suddenly he takes my face between his hands and kisses me. He pulls me closer by putting his arm around my waist and press me against him. This is my first kiss ever, we were not allowed to do this in Abnegation, only if you were married because it's for your own fun. And you have to be selfless. But right now everything feels perfect. I'm not in Abnegation anymore. I'm in Dauntless now and I'm allowed to do this.
Eventually his lips leave mine and he lets go of me. I stare at him while he turns around and looks through the little window. I keep staring at his back while I try to figure out what to say. "I guess... but, " I'm so going to regret what I'm about to say. "I want to hear it from you, in words, how do you see me?" I had no idea how this worked, was I his girlfriend now or something? He takes a deep breath, and turns around to me. "Would you even like having me as a boyfriend, Tris? He asks me. I was totally not sure about that, I know we couldn't tell anybody, I mean he is older than me and my instructor. "Why me Tobias? I mean.. I don't want to bring myself down but I'm not pretty and you are also older than me." I don't want you to have pity with me or something or that you regret this, whatever it is, later." He shakes his head and walks over to me again, leaving the window behind. "No no no no, Tris, you're not pretty, and I would only go to your funeral if there was cake. But you're amazing, you're selfless, brave, smart, honest and kind. You're everything at once. And even though we can't see each other in public like this, that doesn't matter. I like you." I whisper his name and start blushing. "So from now on I can call you my boyfriend?" I ask him. "Did you just call me your boyfriend, Tris?" Hearing him saying my name gives me chills, in a good way. "I think I did..." I say, a little insecure. I wish I knew how I am supposed to act in this kind of sittuations, definitely one of the thing Abnegation won't teach you. He smiles at me, put his arm around me, leans forward and kiss me again. "I think we can get used to that" he says. Then he kiss me again, longer and with more passion this time. And I kiss him back. Just when his tongue touches my lips someone knocks on the door. I immediately let go of him and look up trying to find a sollution in his eyes. "Sorry Tris can you please wait in the bathroom for a minute? I will look who is on the door and I'm so sorry I really hate to hide you." "It's okay, I'll just wait there." I don't know how to proper react to something like this so I just leave the room.
