What's There To Lose?

Chapter 4

Getting to Liyah house took a minute so I sat back listening to the girls talk about tonight. I honestly was tired and just wanted to sleep.

"Chelle so you and Tae fuckin round?" I peep my eye open to see Dior turned around from the passenger seat looking at me.

I groan sitting up some stretching while clearing my throat, "nah not even a lil bit. We just friends."

She smiles at me and turn around. Then I hear her say, "Yall would be so cute together, but you know he got a baby right?"

Rolling my eyes throwing my head back against the seat. I close my eyes, "Yes Di I know he has a son. What does that have to do with me? I'm not trying to be his wife."

Elise decides to finally speak, "where his baby mama at anyway? I always just see Trill with him."

I scrunch my face up, "Why you calling him Trill? And ion know where his baby mama at, I never asked."

I didn't think it was my place to tell them about his situation with his child's mother or shall I say egg doner. 

Elise turned into Liyah's neighborhood and I had to mentally prepare myself for this long night. Pulling into her driveway I got out while texting her I was outside. I grabbed my duffle and told the girls I would text them later. 

Liyah opened up in just a long Tshirt and a bun. Her eyes were puffy so I knew she had been crying.

I kiss my teeth and pull her to me where she breaks down again. Soothing her. I walk her to her room where we laid down. Cuddling against me with her face in my neck while I rubbed her back. I knew not to talk yet. I had to let her calm down. 

After a while all I heard was her sniffling and the ceiling fan. I look down at her "you want to talk about it yet LiLi?"

She shrugs and I sigh. "It's ok mama. Their problems aren't your problems. Don't stress. I know it's hard seeing your parents going through this, but some things aren't meant to be. Maybe this is for the better. Just don't stress. And stop crying. I hate to see you cry." I lift her chin wiping her tears.

She pouted before more tears fell. Stuffing her face in my shirt. I sighed again and just pulled the comforter over us. Knowing that this was gone be an all night thing. 

Liyah was a year older than me. She was very beautiful, light skinned with long natural hair. And her body was amazing. She was really sweet, she didn't bother anybody she normally kept to herself. Just recently her parents told her they were getting a divorce. It broke her heart because she was always big on family. She felt like they could work it out. Her dad was some big shot lawyer or some shit and her mom was a nurse. Come to find out her dad had a whole nother family. I'm talking two kids and a dog kind of family. 

When he finally came clean to Liyah she didn't have time to process it before he left. Her mom sunk into a depression and it was like she was giving up on life. She started drinking and stopped taking care of herself. I know it hurt Liyah to see it and since she literally has no one to lean on I been her backbone. She would call me after one of her mom's drunken episode and I'd come running like always to console her. 

She finally cried herself to sleep about 2 hours later. I decided I wanted to shower and get more comfortable but she literally clung to me. "Li? Come on let me go to the bathroom I'm coming back."

"Nooooooo please don't leave" She grabbed me tighter while she sniffed.

"Liyah come on man. Let me shower. You know I can't sleep unless I shower. Come on you can go with me."

This was our thing. Weird thing. But our thing. I hated to see her hurt.

She got up coming behind me after I grabbed a face towel and big towel. Started the shower. She sat on the toilet with her head on the sink. I shook my head and stripped to get in the shower.