Poems

Up Late

I'm tired of staying up late.
Night after night,
Pretending not to care,
But deep down I care so fucking much.
That I'd sit up late and stay with you if you asked me too.
I give so much for you but you don't care.
You're right stop stressing.
But boy,
You are my stress,
I fucking care.
I'm up late holding on to life
thread by thread.
pretending,
Pretending
Nothing more then
Pretending,
To make myself feel better.
'You look tired' They say.
"I went to sleep early."
I reply.
But really
I'm up late.
But it won't even phase you
cause remember,
'You should've moved on.'
You're moving on
I'm up late.
Blinking away the fears as they gather at the brim of my eye.
I blink them away.
Until that one tear escapes my eye. Overfilling them like my eyes are dams.
I'm up late.
Worrying if you're okay.
That's what I do I worry.
Why?
Because
You are my life.
My world
My Sunshine
Baby.
Understand
I'm up Late.
Protecting You, From me.
I'm protecting you from me.
From the MONSTER
I've become.
I'm up late
Crying because
because
I.....I....
I miss you...
I miss us...
I miss this......
mostly
I'm up late
because
I'm what you've created
I'm a Monster
I'm up late.
Missing myself more then I miss you...
I'm up late worrying about myself.
More
than I worry about you.
I'm up late
Contemplating
Because
I'm the MONSTER.