Author's note: From here on out, almost all the chapters are based on things that happened to me. Moments that made me who I am today; moments are that are meaningful and very important to me.
I always went to this island, an island where I could think and write all that was in my mind. I always thought that 'I knew every life's a movie. We got different star and stories, we got different nights and mornings. Our scenarios aren't just boring and I find this movie very amusing. Every day, I want to shoot it well and I want to hug myself.' On the island, I was alone and I sometimes knew that I really hated myself but to be honest, I quite often really do hate myself. So, when I hate myself, it's obvious I go to my island and surround myself by the familiar darkness that I have come to love. The world turned from its original name which was happiness, and is now called despair.
I'm all my joy and anxiety, which repeats itself every single day, also bringing the love and hate directed to me. Hey you, the one who's looking over Han River, if we bump into each other while walking beside the river, would it be fate? Or maybe we've bumped into each other countless times before? Maybe, just maybe we bumped into each other in our past life or in another life? While walking, I notice that in the darkness people look happier than in the day. It's like everyone knows where they're supposed to be walking to, but only I walk without a purpose. Yet, I still blend in with them and it's more comfortable that way. The island which I go to, has swallowed up the night, hands me an entirely different world. I whispered to no one in particular, 'I want to be free, I want to be free from freedom because right now I'm happy, but unhappy.'
Being happy doesn't mean that it's completely true because the once of happiness I felt also brought another feeling, which never made me expect it. I was looking at myself, while at my island. I never told you the name, did I? It's Dduksum*. I always said this to myself when I was there, 'I wish I could love myself, I wish I could love myself...' It was like I was trying to hypnotize myself with a chant that I knew was useless, but I thought it could help me, even though I knew that was a hopeless dream.
AN:
For those of you who don't know...
*Dduksum – island where they go to think/write lyrics
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Wings
Short StoryI was kind of inspired by BTS' last album, Wings. I wrote some shorts, and I guess my friends liked it, so I am posting my very first story here. Hope you like it.
