what is Life to you?

Happiness?

Do i feel happiness in me? Yes i do but sometimes i feel like there's something missing, like theirs some guilt left within me.

Is it wrong to feel lonely? When you have everything you've ever wanted except love from your family and friends that you use to have. I don't know I just don't know, I wish i did though.

This happened two years ago my whole entire family was assassinated by a certain unknown group which left me in a shock and I started to not trust anyone except myself. I guess you call those types of people a 'shut in'!

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I came walking home as usual to an unexpected event that was waiting for me to see, I opened the door to see........."aaaaaaaahhh!", my family was scattered all over the place leading into different rooms, their body's were undescrible to an extent where I couldn't identity who they were or which parts were assembled, to the different parts of another person's body. They were tortured, slaughtered, crushed and killed there was blood splattered everywhere, not a single spot was missed apart from my room, maybe that's  where I was supposed to be.......?

I immediately called the police while screaming, crying in silence on the phone while in so much mentally in pain. I thought right there that my life isn't  worth to live for and I should kill myself on the spot, so I grabbed the knife in the kitchen and before I stabbed myself, my best friend rushed inside and suddenly stopped me from harming my body and hurt her own arm.

I caused another person to be involved and caused them to hurt themself, "it was all my fault", unconsciously, my best friend slapped me across the face and said to me "why do you always blame yourself, why? You haven't done anything wrong.It isn't your fault that this incident had happened, so no matter what please don't blame yourself, if not for yourself then do it for me, please ( she said quietly )", crying to herself while hugging me tightly, I could feel her warmth........

Shortly after, the police arrived in no time they saw it all and said "they've done it again" murmured quietly to himself, I responded quickly "who's they", the head of all police replied "it's a group called 'Blanc' they find certain family's and toy with them it's like their own little 'toy' and have fun with them in a sickly and disgusting manner, it's terrible! the way they play with people's mind then their body in a horrific way, like what they did to your family by murdering each and every single one of them but I'm glad that you were able to survive".

"Any way could you come with us for protection you can bring your friend of course so you will feel a little more comfortable and safe to have someone with you, they're probably still after you.So could we discuss this in a more fashionable way, is that okay with you?"
" yes".
"But my friend Serena doesn't have to come if she doesn't want to its her choice", "OF COURSE I'LL COME WITH YOU!", she replied quickly as she was shouting infront of me.
"Oh i remembered we also need to heal your arm it's been bleading for a while now, does it still hurt?"I asked being worried and quite nervous.
"It's fine don't worry about it" she said, in a glad voice as if everything was how it use to be while comforting me but it felt like there was some kind of hidden meaning when she told me not to worry.I wonder?