Poem Collection

The Self Destruct Boy

For awhile he was okay.

He smiled and laughed with joy.

But time soon took it's course. 

Depression began to fight this boy.

For months he thought we was winning.

A battle he thought was finally over. 

But a turn of events took hold of his heart

All while he tried to keep his composure.

He intended on keeping a promise

And worked hard to not end a streak

But more the pain prolonged for

The more things seemed bleak.

One afternoon it became worse

He fought but his feelings invoked

He got home from school and broke it all down

His tears streamed as he choked

Grabbed a notepad and scribbled down words

"I'm sorry for you to find out this way

but it was better for you not to know I was hurt."

He got up and paced

Afraid but knowing he was ready

He walked into the bathroom and broke his blade,

Trying his hardest to keep his hands steady.

He stalked back to his bedroom

Began to paint a picture of sorrow on his skin

The tears mixed with the blood

As he knew this time he wouldn't win.

He slashed his skin,

And let the blood spill

He wiped the tears from his eyes

And began to write his will.

The next day at school he remained silent

Another failed attempt and an attempt to hide

Bracelets braced his arms

Wishing he had already died.

Everyday was the same

Hiding, pretending, faking it.

Making sure no one sees the pain in his eyes

or the scars on his wrist.

He kept a notebook

He let no one read what he wrote

On the front page, "You will win"

Was his favorite quote.

He fought with all his might

He fought this monster every single day

And it finally began to seem

He was beating this life so gray.

Things took a sudden turn

He attempted again, with all his self hate

And everyone there tried to stop

But it was too late.

His cell phone rang, but no one to answer

The locked door beating with a rhythm of knocks

He laid there, his head banging and a loss of feeling

He passed out when they broke the locks.

When they stood over him

What didn't matter anymore was the past.

Because in this moment, his close friends witness

The breath that was his last.

The room filled with cries

Screams, asking why.

They tried to bring him back

But he was gone, free, as if he were high.

A new note laid beside him

His friends began to read

"I truly love all of you guys

But God finally answered my plea.

Do not let this stop you.

Go on stronger because of me.

Work to help those like me

Keep us safe, keep us free.

I was a lost cause

But you aren't.

You have potential for greatness

No matter the current.

Remember these words when you feel like it's over

Because it's never over until you win.

Keep your heads held high in hope

And don't damage your skin.

You will be the greatest thing you can imagine.

And if that's makes you happy, go for it. 

Stay alive, prosper and fight

It's easier than I could admit.

So remember to fight for those like me

And make sure my death is not in vain.

So with that, goodbye, world.

I now leave behind my pain."