Serve Your Crime

Insomnia (Introduction)

I sat on the bed, clasping both of my hands and propping my chin. I should be used to this by now, this clenching feeling on my chest that leaves me breathless for a couple of minutes, it should be gone but it's not. It keeps coming back, and each time; it's worse than before.

Sometimes, the feeling of anxiety washed over me right before I go to bed. My little happy place in my dream always made me slightly calmer in sleep, if only it would stay longer than the nightmares - it's like I'm being haunted constantly.

Laying down on my bed, I shakily sigh before shutting both of my eyes. Taking a pill from the desk and chew on it, it's a.. drug that helps me fall asleep faster. Makes me calm and controlled. If I didn't take it I can't get a blink of sleep, which is not good because I have daily activites to catch up with.

Ah, right. Before my mind shuts down, I should tell a little about myself. The rest can be told tomorrow, whether through speech, thoughts, or actions I perform each day. My name is Gilgamesh Julian Rontoro, people liked to call me Juli or Gilga, whichever is fine. I guess. I am 20 years old, I live a decent life, managing to balance my college works and my job. I am an author, but I work as a waiter in a diner. Both pay very well for me, and I have no intention to change how my life flow any time soon.

I am single, and the empty room beside mine has never been occupied. I am one of those that you called 'gifted and cursed', I have the ability to use telepathy but I am still a beginner and taking baby steps to master it. I never told anyone this, and I have no intention on revealing it to the public. In case I got mistaken as.. crazy, you know?

Well, as a telepathy, I could control minds and read minds, right? Right, even though I am capable of reading bits and pieces of people's mind (the loud-thinker is much more accesible, though.) and control my own dreams, I have absolutely no clue on how to get a firm hold of their mind.

The result of having a telepathy is.. not good, of course. That's why I called people who possess things like me 'gifted and cursed', I am unable to sleep calmly due to the busy current of minds bouncing all around the world. Thus, making me accidentally stumble into a nightmare, or a decent dream which is.. very rare to find now, surprisingly.

The pills, they were made to shut my brain down, or my 'fourth eye' (heh) to give me a dreamless sleep. Both equally sucks, but dreamless is better than nightmares, I suppose. I won't have to wake up screaming in the middle of the night, but I feel very dull in not having a dream at all. Just literal blackness, for a minute or two, and when I woke up - it's already morning.

How do I know? I remember dreams vividly, every bit of it. It's like I have an extra storage in my mind for each and every thing I remembered.

I'm getting sleepy, I should continue this later on. Until then, I suppose.

Good night.