My Lovely Words to Your Poem

Suffering

I just feel so down...
I really hate myself
I wish you didn't leave without my consent
I've never forgotten someone
especially you
I'm trying to be honest
And I mean it
I just had it explode in my head relentlessly
And I'm dealing with two principles of my sides
I feel panicked by everything in such an abrupt manner
Everything is oppressing me
I'm just a mess for leaving you that long.
I can't prove myself anymore
And this happening all the time is just behaviours I receive.
I don't have any words to say
I've ran out
And I'm sorry that I couldn't show that I'm sorry anymore
Because to you,
you needed more
But I am just suffering.