BURNED

Chapter Four

I woke to loud beeping and I was instantly brought back to that night. I was getting better I wasn't having that many nightmares about it. That's was till now.

I slowly opened my eyes to see Kyle sitting there looking concerned. "Kyle, what's going on?"  I said looking at him.  That's when my hands went to my belly.  Oh no.  "Kyle, my baby!  Where is my baby?"

    He stood up and came closer.  "Shhh, Maci she is okay. I'll get the doctor so they can explain what happened." He said and walked away. He was too calm. It scared me completely to my core.

I closed my eyes hoping my little girl was okay. My eyes snapped open and I realized Kyle said she. I have a little girl. I smiled, I can't wait to see her.

"Ahh Miss Hayes, how are you feeling?"  The doctor asked as she checked all my vitals and wrote them down on a piece of paper.

    "I'm good but I want to see my baby!"  I said because I was so excited. I just wanted to hold her and I have to give her a name.  Oh my there is so much I need to do.  I have to call Shelly!

"Your baby is doing well, she was a good size at 6lbs 8oz. She is beautiful!" She looked up at me. "What happened was your placenta some how detached and caused you to bleed and pass out. When you got here we had to do a emergency c section. There is a slight chance you may not be able to carry another child. But that is for another discussion down the road right now we need to worry about you getting stronger. You probably don't feel much pain because of the pain meds we have you on but if your ready we can wheel you down to meet your beautiful daughter!"

I took in what she said and it hurt that I may not be able to have anymore children. But at least I have her and she is healthy. "I would love to go! I want to see her so bad and name her!"

      Once we got to the nursery I smiled.  As they wheeled me over to the crib that was labeled "Baby girl Hayes!" My smile got bigger.  I looked at my little girl who was so beautiful despite how she got here. 

    The nurse picked her up and smiled.  "She is such a good baby!  Your lucky."  I smiled back as she place my baby girl in my arms.

    As I sat there and held her I just thought of all those what ifs.  Then thought I really wanted this.  Her and I.  I still wasn't sure about Kyle, he just seemed so far away now.

     "So do you have a name picked out?"  The nurses gathered around me.  All eager to hear what I was about to say. I looked at her and knew right away. 

    "Rosie Ann Hayes!"  I said and looked at them.  "Yes I think that suites her just fine.  I kissed her little head and then removed her hat to see a head full of brown hair.  She was so beautiful and she looked a lot like myself.  "Can she come back to my room?"  I asked eager to hold her and feed her.

      "Yes as soon as we get her vitals and do a heal prick for a standard test we will bring her right down.  Then if you want we can help you breast feed or bottle feed whichever you decided."

      After a while of Kyle and I sitting in awkward silence they brought Rosie down to me.  I could see in Kyle's eyes just how much seeing her hurt him.  What would he do. 

     The nurse handed her to me and helped get her settled on my breast.  The nurse helping me as we heard a sudden scrap of the chair, we both looked up at Kyle.  "I'm sorry I just can't Maci!  That thing is the result of a rape!  A result of the pain you went through!  I can't deal with this, with you being so happy with it!"  He then turned and walked out.