He's Come Undone

Chapter 20: Fairytale

~ ETHAN ~

As his body convulsed on the floor of our room,  I snapped back to my senses.
I see a puncture mark on his neck, and I know it's from me.

"Fuck," I mutter under my breath, turning Tomi on his side so he doesn't choke on the foam building up in his mouth, getting thicker and thicker by the second.
"Tomi, please!" I plead frantically as the tears streaming down my face tickle the bottom of my jaw. "Tomi!" I shake him lightly, but he doesn't respond. He can't respond.

Maybe this is a nightmare. I close my eyes, gripping onto Tomi's quickly sweating body in front of me. I try to will myself to wake up. Tomi splutters below me, and some of the white foam bubbles out of his mouth.
This is not a nightmare, this is happening.
This is all my fault. This is my biggest nightmare, except it's a reality, and it's all my fault.

"Tomi," I said, trying to steady my heaving breaths, "I'm so sorry. I did this to you. I'm so, so sorry." My breaths don't slow, they get faster and faster, until I feel like there's no more air left in the room to inhale. I gasp for air that's not there, and my arms buzz with panic. As I finally exhale, I burst into tears again.
"Tomi!" I cry.

His eyelids flutter open, revealing blood-shot eyes, confirming my deepest worries.

I had Turned Tomi Nyawo.

"Tomi! What's wrong? How do you feel?" I ask him, and he just looks at me, before sticking a finger into his mouth. He prods around in his mouth for a couple of seconds, then his red eyes bore into mine.
"I'm a vampire!" He says, and he looks startled, almost like he's about to run far, far away.

"I'm so sorry. This is all my fault. I - I didn't have control of anything. Of my body, my limbs, I didn't know what I was doing. I-" I stumble on my words, trying to think of something, anything that could make him feel better.
"Give me some fucking blood." Tomi spits, and I know he's mad, but I can't work out what kind of reaction he's going to have.

I get up and run to my bedside, grabbing the bag that rests under my bed. I pull it out and unzip it. I usually drink it when Tomi is fast asleep at night, so he doesn't have to see. I guess those days are over. I pull out a tub of blood, and slowly walk over to Tomi.

"I want you to know that I don't actually know what happens if you wait out the cravings. I know all you feel like and all you want right now is blood... but, I think it'd be really beneficial if you didn't -" I was trying to figure out the mess I'd made, when Tomi snatches the tub from my hands and empties it into his mouth, swallowing it in gulps.

"I fucking hate you." He says, blood still flowing around in his mouth. I feel sick. "You've ruined my life, Ethan. That's all there is to it. I'm ruined. Now I'm just as bad as you." He spits at me again, throwing the empty tub into a corner of our room and turning away from me.

I stand there, and I feel my body tremble with guilt. He sits on the side of the bed with his head in his hands, whimpering quietly. I don't know if he's crying.

But he's right, I'm a monster. And because I was so careless, I made him a monster. I was never and will never be perfect because I have this fatal flaw, eating my good characteristics away and filling me with evil. And now he's the same.

I thought maybe I'd be happy, that I had solved it. But then I go ahead and do this.
I'm not as strong as I thought I was. Maybe I shouldn't be here. Maybe I should do what my dad did, and run away, hide. At least then others would be protected.
I'm sure Macy, my mum, and Kai... they wouldn't care that much. They'd get over it in a day or two.

His whimpers fill my ears, forcing my insides to fill with an agonising guilt.

Silly me for thinking I could be a villain with a fairytale.