Unnoticed Feelings (It's Just You And Me)

Keeps me company

   The college that I go to isn't bad at all... I've been for three months now and I'm beginning to like it more,plus the distance ain't bad either...

  I don't hang around that often,cause I'm still a bit new here,yes I know  I came in a few  months ago and all,but I'm still new and still trying to get used to the place and I think I'm adapting well,since the cute stranger's here...And my cool new friends too...

   He gives me fireworks in my stomach,he just winks every time I gaze at him,or when he passes by me. I'm still a tad nervous of speaking to him but when I muster the urge I'll go,just not right now.

    My new friends is Jessie,a cute blonde,big brains school girl, with hazel eyes,she has a bubbling personality that you can never refuse to love,when you get to know her.
  Then there's Kaleb,the school's  ninth hottest guy,he's got the eyes of a soul searcher, he's got the shape of a guy who works out in the gym a lot ,crossed with a professional model and a genius in disguise,he can even figure out the codes for the alphabet, he's mixed with brains and bronze.
   And then there's Ariana,(no not the signer),she may look like and sing like her,but she is not her. She is the one I mostly speak to,cause we have so many similarities and things in common. We're both sixteen and we both love to go out a lot...so yeah.

   All in all,they're cool to hang out with,gives great advice and cares a lot about my actions and what I do all the time.

  A couple of times,in the first few months of being here, I felt uncomfortable and a little bit home sick, they came out of the blue (I didn't know them at the time), and decided to introduce themselves and talked to me to cheer me up and make me feel welcome when I didn't want or expected company.
   They were nice and mellow and I'm glad I have them. I adapted to them quick and they became my newest set of best  friends.

   I'm not saying I'm replacing my old friends, I'm saying that I enjoy my new friends ...
  Probably in a few years,when I'm finished with college, I'll go back to Boston and spend more time with my old friends for a while and maybe I can bring my new friends to come along and meet my old friends.
It's what I want for the moment.
 
   From what I've seen for myself, I kinda have two or three persons that I consider friends,that keeps me company on a daily basis.
 
Although,but the cute stranger...Wow!
   To be honest with myself, I have  never been love struck before like this...
Well my ex, Damien, (ex-boyfriend's name) ,was different,cause I fell for him way too easy, I was a fool back then and used to think looks was everything, that what was outside was the same on the inside, I know that some people have felt this way a couple times in their lives and it cuts you a lot. That the one you care for and love, sometimes wants more than just you. Then not knowing that you're not the only one your partner is seeing,kinda has you feel like everything that you did with your partner means nothing but a memory...
  That just made me die inside, feel dumb and idiotic for trusting someone so easy.
  
  But for this stranger,it's totally different, I'm afraid the same thing would happen a second time, and this time I'm not caring and if he is like Damien... well I'll be stronger about my after feelings...
I don't know what he has with me and I don't know if he likes me,but I would like him to... he's everything that I want right now... he's looking like my type,but I won't know until I get to know the guy more...
   I sound silly when I talk about him...to myself...but he catches my interest every time I see him walk by or pass by...
  His eyes are deep and soulful and stares at me,looking at my soul's being...I still don't help,but blush like a fool...
 
   Love to me is very weird and very strange, it takes you on journeys into yourself and into the one you're with,it makes you feel a million feelings that was never experienced, yet sometimes you screw up more than once and sorry is not always the answer to all those screw ups.         Some forgive and forget but some just give you the cold shoulder for the unforgivable, I've been there ,one of my friends have been there and to tell you the pain I went through, deception or betrayal or breaking trust is messed up and  stupid, maybe even hurtful,but it stings and it's not easy to forget... it's like your heart's a mirror and someone out of the blue just breaks it...

   For now, I forget what my past was and how it was,cause my new friends and old friends make me forget,they take the load off my shoulders and put it on theirs,they remind me that I'm just one person,that I'm going to face things that can hurt a lot,but that I'm never alone,cause they are walking through my journey with me and they will keep me company...