Break me-Third book to the Drunk Messages series

03

A few hours later,I haven't moved,and I'm still crying, Sam has moved his chair next to mine,and is rubbing my back, whispering in my ear.
"Ssshhh,it's okay,I'm here. It's okay,calm down. It's ok."
I breathe and say slowly,
"It is most definitely not okay."

"You're right I'm sorry, I didn't th-"
He's cut off,by my phone ringing,sniffing and wiping my tears,I pull it out and see the name,
'Jack❤️'
Lighting up the screen.
Scowling, Sam takes my phone out of my hands and presses answer.
Usually I would object,but right now I don't have he willpower or the emotion.
I just sit back,and let my thoughts drift,faintly I hear Jack and Sam arguing over the phone,

'Sam let me speak to her. Give her back her phone.'

"Do you have any idea what you've done to her?"

'What are you talking about?'

"Don't lie and pretend Jack. You're cheating on her and you know it."

'I-'

"Save it Jack. Do you know how much you've hurt her?! She's been crying for 4 and a half hours. Over you. A selfish, horrible jerk who doesn't deserve to speak to her,let alone be her boyfriend."

'You can't say much. You cheated too.'

"I know I did. And it was the worst mistake of my life. But cheating on her when you know that her heart is fragile enough? That's low Jack. Even for you. Leave her alone,and get the hell out of her life."

'Whatever Sam,I'll call her back and talk to her when you aren't around.'

"Good luck finding a time like that,because I am not leaving her side until she orders me away."

'You won't have to wait long then.'

I can practically hear the smirk in his voice and it angers me so much,I snatch my phone back,

"Jack Finnegan Gilinsky,don't ever speak to me again you stupid, selfish,hopeless,cheating jerk. I can't believe I ever wasted my tears on you. Goodbye."

'Jess,let me-'

I press 'end call' and throw my phone across the room, let my head fall onto the table,and begin to cry again.
But this time not for Jack,for being so naive and letting myself believe all the crap in my life was over.
Of course it wasn't.
It's never over.
Not until the day I die.
"Sam?"

"Yeah?"

"Did you mean it when you said you weren't gonna leave my side until I order you away?"

"Well yeah,unless you want me to go,then I'll stay."

"No,stay. I need you."

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*two hours later*

I realised how little I had seen of my children earlier,and called my mom to tell her me,a few friends, and Sam were coming over,I could tell she was burning with curiosity as I added Sam's name to my list of people who were coming,but I just said, 'I'll explain later mom.' and she didn't say anything after that.
Rose runs up to me as soon as I walk in,and hugs me.

"Mom!! I missed you!!" I smile at her,although she's only seven,she's adorable,and learning her speech fast,

"I missed you too sweetie,where Nana and Oli?"

She points to the kitchen and I walk through with Sam clutching my hand.

It's slightly awkward because we're divorced and all,but I don't really care right now. He's the only one who truly understands me,I need him.