Break me-Third book to the Drunk Messages series

07

We pull away after hugging, and Sam looks at me, the familiar glint in his eye.

"Wait, I have a question."

"Yes Sam?"

"Does this mean...that we're together?"

I smile,
"I don't know dumbass, does it?"

The huge grin he has lights up his entire face,just like the first time we were like this.
Both leaning forward,the silence is interrupted,

"Jess?" Sam breathes,

"Yeah?" I whisper back,

"Can I-can I kiss you?"

I smirk and wrap my arms around him, before saying,

"You didn't need to ask."
Grinning he closes the small gap between us, and crashes his lips against mine.
Fireworks exploding in my mouth, my rain has a mini party, and my heart finally feels full.
'Finally.'

He pulls away after a while, gasping for breath,
"I'm so happy."

I hesitate before saying the words that's ended to come out for months.
The words I hoped I would use everyday.
Three simple words, with so much meaning.
The words,
"I love you."

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*3 weeks later*
Sam sleeps at mine most nights, and even has his own key.
I've had no further pestering from Jack, but word went round that he's fallen into a deep hole called depression.
When I first heard this I immediately called him
Just because he's my ex, doesn't mean I don't care.

*
Ringing 'Jack'
"Hi! You've reached Jack Gilinsky! Please leave a message after the beep. Thank you."

Hanging up, my hands are shaking.
Is he okay?
Was I too hard on him?
Should I go round?
*
After finally confronting Sam about this, he confirms that Jack is fine, and is just trying to give me a taste of what I gave him.
I rang again and left a message,
'I don't know how much I hurt you Jack, but I was only gonna ask if you were okay, because people are saying you have depression. I won't be calling again. Goodbye, Jess.'

It's not my fault he isn't taking care of himself, and there's nothing I can do.
He won't let me help him,
So I won't try.

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"Babe?"

"What's wrong Sam?"

"Can Rose and Oli come back from your moms early?" He questions,

"I swear you see them more than I do."

"I've missed them."

"I noticed. I'll call my mom."

"Thanks babe."

Unlocking my phone I go onto my contacts, scrolling down, I find my self looking past my moms contact, and subconsciously I stop on Jason's.
We kinda lost contact after the party, and me disappearing etc.
Ya know, as you do.

Me- Um hi, I know we lost contact, but I just wanted to talk? Not really sure how to say it...

Jason- Hi.