Take 2

~Chapter 1~ Before

"I spent some time thinking..." he said, each word nervously enticing me. The cursed wind blowing wildly, stealing breathes from each soul. "I don't think we can work together like we had hoped. You aren't the person I thought you were." He turned his head, looking at the cold crusted road. My mouth opened, wanting to say something. Anything to stop his words as well as further more puncturing my heart.
" You don't mean that..." I said laughing nervously. I reached out to rest my hand on his shoulder. He jerked his body away. I flinched and retracted my reach. "Hahahaha..." I laughed.
"I'm sorry. I don't think it's a good idea to continue what you had thought was possible; you aren't who I thought you were. We should see new people or do new things." The guy said unwilling to look me in the eye. He pivoted his direction away from the lonely girl in the cold. I stood in the cold unable to act.
"Please don't leave me!" I sobbed leaping onto the man. The sudden impact of an ice cold hand drew across my face.
"Don't try that again!" He yelled. "It's over! Get it through your brain Alicia! Your so stupid! Why did I waste three years going out with you!? Leave before I do more harm I wish to inflict." Said the guy I once loved. I looked up to see his eyes that once sparkled. I looked up to see his smile that was once magical. I looked up only to see hatred, regret, and dead passion. As his tall silhouette faded in the dimly lit streets, I stood waiting as though something would happen.

And that was my last romance in years.

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"Alicia wake up!" My brother exclaimed barging in the one place I reserve. He grabbed a pillow and slammed numerous times onto my body.
" STOP LOKE!!!" I yelled, frustrated about his intrusion of privacy. I rolled onto my back side and examined Loke. "She's a keeper?" I asked; his neck consisted of kiss marks and smudged mascara streaking down from the chin to the collar bone.
"She's pretty cool I guess." Loke replied shrugging. He dropped the pillow onto the mattress and sat down next to my bed. "She's pretty cool..."
"If she's only pretty cool, then stop. You always say that to almost every one of your girls." I mumbled rolling towards the wall. Loke just sat there staring at nothing for a solid two minutes before saying anything.
"Aight, your always right." With two grunts upon getting up he said. "I'll tell her that I wanna cut it."
I smiled facing the wall. "You better. I'm not always going to be here." I said jokingly.
"Sure, sure." My brother laughed. But we both knew that it's most likely possible for a long time. I struggled to get up and stretched out when I reached atop my bed. Loke proceeded to leave my room as I got ready for the day.

"I'm such an idiot!" I mumbled to myself, running through traffic in the blustery October weather. Alberta being so frigid and cold, I could barely see what's ahead through the curtain of hair I provided unintentionally to myself. I shouldered my purse and hugged my body whilst persistently running. Over the curtain of hair I had made, I could see my destination. One more stop light and I'd arrive. Pressing the frozen button on the pole, I did some jumping to keep my body temperature warm. Looking up I saw anger and frustration in the sky. The clouds were swarming in a messy feisty way; birds wouldn't dare take flight. It seemed like minutes before the light in which I were to stop at, turned white letting me pass through. But my mistake was not looking both ways and crossing. My eyes could barely comprehend what happened as I slammed against the cold pavement and the sky turned oh so dark.

"AMBULANCE!" A woman shrieked. "MY DAUGHTER! OH MY DAUGHTER." I heard, as lights passed through in various shades. The squeaking of wheels and parade of foot steps had had me wondering what was going on. I slowly scanned the area around me. The people rolling me had panic looks on their faces. "She's awake!" One said. The pace quickened and soon enough I was in an enclosed space. "Ma'am... I'm afraid we will have to explain everything later. I need you to relax and forget about everything." A woman said, a hint of fear in her voice. "Please, close your eyes." My eyelids flickered unwillingly and I was soon welcomed by the darkness. A small injection was made before knocking out completely.

"Alicia?"
"Yes."
"She's the patient?"
"I'm afraid so."
I winced. What are they talking about? I wondered, feeling a rush of pain overcome me. My eyes blurred trying to focus on something.
"Eyes: brown. Age:19. Condition..." there was a slight pause. "Bad." The person continued. My ears couldn't hear the end of it. I pondered that sentence. Bad? What's bad? My eyes ricochet around the room. IV, monitors, nurses...
"Excuse me..." I said in a raspy voice. I stopped, surprised at my own voice. The doctor and nurse stared almost as though they were shocked.
"Y-yes Alicia?" Said the nurse.
"What's going on?"
The doctor and the nurse both glimpsed at each other and nodded solemnly. "You were hit by a car." I sighed. I knew that, but there was something else they weren't telling me.
"I know. I'd have to be daft to not know what had happened. My mental state is still fine. It's just my body." I said, slowly sitting up. The splurge of instant pain over whelmed me. I proceeded to lay back down. "There's something else isn't there?" I questioned. The doctor motioned for the nurse to bring something to him.
"Alicia, there's no easy way to say this." The doctor cleared his throat. "You have cancer." Baffled, I laughed.
"Haha you're kidding right? There's no way."
"Ma'am you're lucky we caught it
before it spread." The nurse said firmly, handing a clipboard comprised with information.
"Ah yes, the cancerous spot is on your chest. It's stage 1 so nothing life threatening. We believe the nymph nodes should be operated on." Continued the doctor. I stared blankly.
"Seriously?..." I breathed.
"Unfortunately so." The lady replied. My heart paced faster than before. I didn't know how to react. Further more, the blow from the car rushed into my nerves. My ears buzzed in pain and I gasped in 15 second intervals until the pain subsided from the injection the nurse had done. I wanted this to be over with. Why? Why? Why?