Love is way too confusing

Chapter 6

Chapter 6!!! Enjoy!

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JO'S POV:

Ryan's coffin lowered down into the damp earth, leaving a haunting feeling to know that his once lively body is lifeless and still. Dead.

I put on my poker face. In attempt to hide my utter sorrow and grief.

Suzie gently held my hand as we watched the coffin hit the bottom of the pit.

That seemed to make me crack, but not brake.

I twitched and blinked fast, trying (and almost failing) to keep the millions of tears from flooding out again. I looked up at the grey sky, letting my mouth tremble and give a stuttered breath.

I looked over at Suzie.

She glanced at me with a wet face and red eyes.

I had never heard such silence.

"Let us pray that Ryan will find happiness and cheer with The Lord. May he always be in our hearts. Let him rest in peace." He priest bowed his head and held his hands.

Upon the crowd I heard soft sobs and wails, coming mostly from Mrs. Banning.

I felt the familiar sob in my throat, trying to force it's way out.

I swallowed.

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"Joey, I can't even imagine what you must be going through, and this probably won't help at all, but I just want you to know that if you need anything, just call me. If your on your period and you don't feel like going out, I'll go get you tampons." Suzie pulled into her driveway and tried to laugh.

I glanced at her and nodded. Even though I know that I have friends and family here for me, I have never felt more alone.

Ryan death didn't seem real until now.

When I saw his pale, cold and lifeless body laying in the coffin, I for a second thought that it was all a joke and that he was going to just sprang out of the coffin and bring me into a kiss, whispering in my ear 'gotcha!'.

Then they closed the coffin and I snapped into the reality that I was never going to see him again. That I will never hear his sweet voice. That I could never again run my hands through his soft hair. That there would never be an us again. That I could never kiss him again.

That he was dead.

We climbed her stairs up to her room, stopping so that her parents could hug me.

But all I could do was look at them. I felt lifeless myself.

Suzie looked almost scared. Like she was scared that I was going to hurt myself. I don't blame her.

When the door to her room shut it reminded me of the horrifying sound of the coffin snapping shut.

And so then, I decided to brake.

I looked at Suzie and clutched my face in my hands and fell to the ground, wrapping myself in my arms. And I sobbed. I stopped holding it all in like I had for weeks and just sobbed.

The kind of sob that makes you scrunch your face into a wail, that has you finding yourself gasping for air, that makes you feel like your tears have no end.

The kind of sob that makes you want to die.

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End of chapter 6!

K it's probably my shortest chapter yet but it's mainly a filler.

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