Love is way too confusing

Chapter 4

I woke up on Monday morning with the familiar agony of stupid tiredness.

I stumbled out of bed and went into the shower.

It wasn't until the hot water hit me that I remembered.

If I were a cookie i'd be a WhoreEo.

I rubbed my face, as if trying to rub away the thoughts and memories of Friday.

Why is it always damn Friday?

Not only did I beat up a guy that was defending me, I was hand raped by Brayden, and I admitted that I still loved Ryan.

And kissed him.

I closed my eyes and touched my lips, remembering the warmth that his lips passed on to mine.

I remember when I used to feel that everyday...

Could me and Ryan get back together?

Though I wish never had to ask myself that. Me and Ryan never should have ended.

Everything was a pure fairy tale for 2 years. We were the one couple that only had fights once a month, could never keep our lips off of each other and everyone thought that surely we were to be married later on.

I was so happy, every night I had positive things to write in my diary.

Well about Ryan.

Then one day my entire world came crashing down on me without warning at all.

~~Flashback ~~

I had just retaken my science test and was heading out the school doors.

"JO!"

I looked down the hall to see Melissa frantically scrambling over to me and flailing her hands in the air.

"Melissa?"

"JO GET TO THE HOSPITAL RIGHT NOW! GO!" she started pushing me out the doors and pulling me to my car. Back then it was a stupid little red Bug.

I stopped and yanked her over to look at me.

"What happened?"

"Ryan got in a fight and he's really hurt. C'mon we need to go now!"

I immediately sprinted to my car and jammed the car keys in, almost leaving Melissa.

"Why did he get in a fight?!" I was screaming and crying as I followed the hospital arrows on the road.

"Riley came back..."

I almost slammed breaks and pulled over.

"RILEY CAME BACK?!" Riley had been my abusive and possessive boyfriend a year ago. He was arrested after he tried to rape me.

"Yeah he did. Now fucking drive we don't have all day!"

I was in shock and barely focused on the road.

I was shaking uncontrollably and I could feel the tears dripping slowly but steadily off my chin.

"How?" I managed.

"He got bailed out. His mom finally forgave him. He went to your house and even hit your mom just to look for you. When he figured out that you weren't there he demanded to know where you were, when Ryan walked in with flowers, he was going to surprise you and take you out to dinner." She said the last part quietly and looked at me, now starting to cry too. "Ryan saw your mom's face and told Riley to get out. Riley connected the dots about the flowers and lost it. Started saying crap about how you were gonna wait for him, how you were the only one for him and how nobody could have you. They got in a fight and Riley nearly killed Ryan. But your mom called the cops just in time."