Can You Hear My Heartbeat?

I'm sorry for falling (in love)

Yuuri's thoughts when Victor said he'd leave if he missed the podium.
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"Yuuri, if you miss the podium, I'll take responsibility by resigning as your coach."

What? Victor why?

No...not again. Please don't do this to me...please don't say you'll leave me behind.

It was like the lid that was barely keeping his insecurities at bay had been forcefully ripped away and now all his demons were clouding his mind.

Ha! Such a weakling.

No, I'm better than this. I won't listen to you.

Of course it was to be expected anyway. Why would someone like Victor want to stay with a pathentic weakling like you?

Stop it! Stop saying these things! Victor would never leave me!

Deep down, you always knew didn't you? That he'd leave you behind and go for someone more talented.
No...it's not like that. Victor told me he'd stay with me.

Someone better. Brighter. Stronger.

Stop! I know I have the skill. Victor wanted to train me because I'm talented! I work harder than anyone else! Practicing and practicing again and again every single day!

You were always like this. Caught up in those silly delusions that you had even a scrap of talent. What a fool you are.

Shut up! He personally came to Hasetsu when he saw the video of me skating his routine because I inspired him! He said so himself!

You inspired him? What a joke. Well it didn't last long did it? He realized his mistake and wants to go.

Shut it! Shut it! Victor will stay with me!

Why won't you admit it? You can't keep him forever. You're just trying to delay the invietable.

No...NO! Victor wouldn't leave me now! He wouldn't do this to me!

Why don't you ask him yourself then?

"Why? Why would you say that?"

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Author's note : Episode 11 is already out and I'm only trying to deal with episode 7 now. Yeah, I can totally see my bright future filled with happiness. But actually I just wanted to write about what went on in Yuuri's mind at that time. Yea yea I'm a sucker for angst I know.