Mislead

3 ♡ Forgive me?

Have you ever asked yourself why you keep doing the things your doing even though you know its wrong?

- Maybe its because no matter how many right choices you make. You never really get noticed, until you've done something wrong.

Until you can't erase it anymore

Until you can't go back to the way things used to be.

Then you really realized, It wasn't about that.

“ Hey baby, you hungry? " My mom asked while I sat on the bar stools and my mom drank her coffee while reading the newspapers. “ No, its okay. Thank you anyways " I said putting on a fake smile.

“ Tamar, baby you know I know you like the back of my hand right ? I may not always be here but I know you , Come on tell me wassup? "My mom asks as she pulled me on the couch

“ I'm okay mom really. " I tried convincing my mom and trying to convince myself that I'm okay. “Where's Savion at? "My Mom asked trying to start a conversation.

" Mom I'm gonna go, Isaiah outside." I was actually waiting for him. “ He ain't no good, I don't know why you still with him forreal. " My Mom smartly said. “ Mom you don't know him." I yelled trying to walk out the kitchen.

“ SITCHO ASS DOWN NOW, I Don't know who the fuck you raising your voice at. You done lost yo rabbit ass mind. He outside right? Cause I only met him twice. Go get him now! " She yelled pointing at the door.

I walked outside to see Isaiah waiting impatiently as he leaned on his car .

“ I ain't got fucking time for your damn ass taking your sweet time come -- " I interrupted. “ My Mom wants you -- " I felt a hard slap strike the side of my face, I automatically put my hand over my cheek. “ Don't interrupt me bitch. Now take me into this damn house So we can hurry up and go. " He said as we walked our way into the kitchen as I kept my hand on my cheek. 

“ How you doing Ms.Jayla? " Isaiah asked as he extended his hand for my mom to shake . “ How you treating my daughter Isaiah? " My mom asked not even shaking his hand but just looking. “ Were doing great,  now I think--." I asked Him not you Tamar. “ Ma'am Were Doing Really Good. " Isaiah Said .

“ Tamar you had your hand on your face for awhile. Put your hand down now. " She said walking towards Isaiah.

“ Isaiah why is her hand on her face?" My Mom asked . “ I-I don't know."

“ Put yo muthafuckin hand down now Tamar." I slowly took my hand off my face. My mom looked at my face once and did a double take.

“ BITCH YOU PUTCHO FUCKING HANDS On My Daughter? " My Mom yelled at Isaiah . “ Nah. " I didn't Isaiah tried to cover up. Savion walked in the house .

“ Wassup Ma?  whats goin on? " Savion asked as he looked at Isaiah in disagreement. “ Look at Tamar face Savion, He hit her and then go lie infront of my face and tell me He didn't .

“ Mom, Please ... I will make him leave ." I said trying to calm her down. “ NO YOU GONE SHUT THE HELL UP, AND STAY QUIET. "

“ Im gonna ask you one mo time. You been beating my daughter ass?". My mom asked as she stood face to face with him. “ Fuck this i'm leaving." Isaiah said as he walked out the door, Savion caught him at the door and punched him. They started fighting .

“ STOP SAVION."

“ JUST LET IT GO."

“ SAVION NOOO. "

Was all I Yelled trying to break up the fight. In the end Isaiah was running out the house and Savion was mad.

I ran out the house to go see if Isaiah was okay.

“ Y-You okay? I'm sorry this happened. " I said trying to calm him down. “ Man, Fuck this shit . I'm about to go. " He yelled and got in the car and drove off and I walked into the house .

“ Why you keep goin back ta det nigga? He don't do nun but hurt yo ass. " Savion yelled. “ H-He's just going through something. He's really not like that. " I tried to defend.

“ Tamar, I don't want you and that boy to be together. When will you see that he don't care about you, stop protecting him because he don't respect you. " My mom said with disappointment in her voice and walking away.

“ Sav-- " He interrupted . “ Save the shit okay Mar damn. Is you dumb or are you stupid? cause you protecting a nigga who beat cho ass every time he see you. Do you like getting yo ass beat ? Do you like being disrespected by him ? Can you not see that you'd rather pick him than yo family. " He said getting mad. “ Savion thats not true, I Love Hi--. " He interrupted “ You don't know what da fuck Love is, You know what I'm done speaking cause it seems to me that its going in one ear and out the other . Fuck you and that nigga, don't call me when he beat yo ass to death , Fuck you bruh I'm pose to be yo best friend I've been there for you since we was younger, but I see you would rather choose him before me. I'm done talking to yo ass, when you see me!  don't call my name , Don't even wave at me. " He said walking out the house and stopping at the door. “ Aw , I forgot. Take this shit, since it don't mean none. " He said snatching off the necklace I gave him for his 13th birthday , then he walked out the house. “ FUCK ! " I Said lowly as I walked upstairs into my room.

                              Wednesday , 2014

I Can't believe this shit right now, my mom is disappointed in me , my best friend I lost. Nothing ever goes right for me,  I'm only human I make mistakes to Dammit!  Maybe I should listen to my mom & Savion, I'm risking my relationship with my mom & best friend over a nigga , Damn just writing this down makes me feel dumb for even trying to protect Isaiah.

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           * One month later *

I've been trying to avoid Isaiah every since the day Savion said all that shit to me. He really meant what he said, every time I see him in the hallways in school he doesn't even look at me not even a glance. It hurts because he was my best friend and he was the only one who could make my day better when I was down. I was now on my way to my fifth hour class.

“ Excuse me. "

“ Pardon me. "

“ Can I get -- " I was interrupted by somebody knocking me down and having my books fly everywhere , I looked up to see Savion.

“ Damn,you shoulda been watching where you was going shawty." He said turning around. I hurried up and gathered my stuff and grabbed his arm before he left .

“ Stop Savion you've been doing this for to damn long. I need my best friend back." I said in one breathe .

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