Mislead

16 ❤ Bitter sweet

| Tamar |

After we were told that Dominique died I couldn't stand up. I dropped to my knees and started crying. She was my other best friend, I loved that girl like she was my sister. Why would anyone murder her? Why would anybody shoot somebody for no reason. This hurts so much! When things get bad they really get bad and I hate it. I'm tired of all this pain in my life, it's unbearable.

I looked over at Savion to see if he was okay but he was kneeling in front of his bed with his eyes closed. He was mumbling something incoherent to himself.

I wanted to ask him if he was okay but we both knew that I wasn't even okay either.

"Come here." Savion mumbled as he sat down beside his bed and spreaded his legs apart so I could sit in between them. I crawled towards him and laid back, he wrapped his arms around me and put his chin on top of my head as I cried silently to myself. "This is so unfair Sav." I whined. "I miss her already, I can't even imagine how her mom is feeling right now. I can't even fathom how her family is feeling let alone us." I cried even harder. "Who could've done this to her?" I asked out loud. "Shhh baby it's okay. We're all going to be okay , just stop talking about it for right now. Your working yourself up." He hushed me as he tried to calm me down while he rocked us both back and fourth. "I can't." I said loudly. " my mind is so open to everything right now, so much stuff is clouding through my head right now. I have nothing but space to think." I cried again. "I know, I know. Come on let's go to sleep." Savion said as we both stood up.

I took my hoodie off and my pants while he pulled the covers back for me to get in. I laid in his bed trying to get comfortable. Savion walked off into his closet to get some extra blankets and pillows to make his pallet on the floor.

I rolled over to check what time it was on my phone. The clock read 3:34 A.M. I couldn't sleep at all and I began reminiscing about the times we had with Dominique, my eyes began to water as I pulled the cover over my head. The room was silent and all I could hear were silent sniffling from the floor. "Omari?" I said a little over a whisper. It took him awhile to answer me back. "Yeah?" He asked with a raspy voice. "You don't have to stay strong for me. It's okay you know? Everybody cries. Stop hiding it." I sincerely said. "What you talm bout'?" He asked trying to sound dumb. "I know your crying. I can hear you." I said sitting up with my back against the head board. " I ain't crying Mook." He said lowly. "Quit putting that tough shell up with me. You don't have to do that no more. We've been best friends for how long? Stop acting like I don't know you by now. You were crying , so stop trying to convince me and yourself that you weren't." I raised my voice a little. It was silent for awhile. "Since when have you became Dr.Phil?" Sav chuckled. "Seriously Sav?" I rolled my eyes. "Alright, I'm just trying to lighten up the mood." He said. "Come up here." I said. He stood up from the pallet and stared at me. His eyes were bloodshot red and he looked stressed. " why you staring ma?" He chuckled. " you was looking at me first, Come lay with me." I tapped the side of me. He got under the covers and laid on his side as he looked at me. "What?" I chuckled , I started to get a little self conscious. This has never happened before. "You nervous around me?" He asked. "I don't know. This hasn't happened to me before." I said as I scooted back down. "You blushing and shit. What the hell?" He laughed. "Stop." I smiled.

"I don't even know why you told me to come lay down with you because you already know how I feel about you. You can't be doing this to me Mook. I'm gone have mixed feelings about this and as much as I want to kiss you right now, I'll respect your boundaries." He said lowly.

He rolled over on his back as he stared at the ceiling. I never really looked and stared at his features.

I never seen how his eyes were kind of slanted, or when he spoke he talked sideways, how his skin was always glowing. Him being fine was an understatement.

I don't know where my mind was or when I grew the balls to do this but I acted on instinct.

I pulled the covers over the both of us and I straddled his lap. He jumped a little bit, I guess I scared him. "Whatchu' doing ma'?" He asked with a unreadable expression on his face. "This." I said as I leaned in and kissed his forehead, then his nose ... His cheeks. I looked at him for a quick second and then kissed his lips once. Then I did it again. He set both his hands on each side of my waist. He sat up a little bit and kissed me. I deepened the kiss as I brushed my tongue across his bottom lip, he willingly opened taking control. I grinded my hips into his lower half as he grunted. He grabbed my ass and squeezed it moving me a little bit.

I don't know what the hell we doing but I'm down for anything. With his fine ass!

I tilted my head to the side for better access as he licked and bit on my neck. My eyes kind of rolled to the back of my head. LAWD the feeling of somebody kissing on your neck is LIFE.

"Oh my God." I moaned a little. I started to grind my hips a little harder. Already knowing what I was getting myself into. He moved his free hand and played with the waistband of my shorts. I was starting to get a little impatient. I moved both my hands to the hem of Savion's shirt , I pulled his shirt up and he raised his hands so I could take it off. He pushed his hand all the way into my panties as he rubbed against my clit ... I threw my head back as I moaned louder. "Fuck." I whispered to myself.

He moved me from on top of him as he laid me on my back and he hovered over me. He stared into my eyes as he looked down as he slid my shorts and panties off.

Finally, shit.

He threw my clothes on the floor and he pulled my shirt and bra off. He stared at me in aw. "What?" I chuckled. "Damn." He said lowly. "Come on, take your clothes off." I demanded. He did as I said as he laid on top of me. "We don't have to do this if you don't want to." He said into my ear. "Shut up and do it already." I laughed.

He slowly pushed himself inside of me. "Gah damn." He said under his breathe. I gasped as I scratched his back. "Like that?" He grunted as he went in and out faster. "Yes." I managed to moan out.

Best friend my ass.