UNWANTED (on hold till summer)

something from the past.

Lying on the bed all day could be deadly boring, but it’s not when you think to the way your minds keeps you occupied. Since the incident this morning, I have been a lot uneasy. I did not expect my body to react in that way, electric shots erupted and covered my body like a blanket and I was immensely enjoying that feeling. It pleasured me and excited me and made me melt in his arms.

And you know what the worst part is; I want to be in his arms again.

I felt so safe and warm.

The thought that disturbs me the most is that I don’t even know who he is, hell I don’t even know his name, my body was like a missing puzzle against his body. We fit perfectly, like peanut butter and jelly-o.

I am so clueless and lost. I have never felt so restless, helpless? Yes, I have felt helpless before when my nights were thrown in nightmares.

I really want answers. What will my family feel about my sudden disappearance? Will they care about it or carry on with their ‘busy’, as they put it life?

I was jolted out of my thoughts when my door, correction his door opened. I sat upright straightening my shirt and looked who the intruder was, like blackness desperate to see the light.

A woman with a try in her hand came in my view and I scrunched my face at her familiarity. I have seen that burgundy hair somewhere but could not figure out where. Even her features were not visible due to the light behind her. She flicked open few dull yellow lights in the dark room that I was in and I was able to see her face.

I gasped in surprise and slipped out of the bed on my wobbly feet. I took small cautious steps towards her, afraid she might turn into something inhuman.

“Alexis honey! How are you feeling?” she asked in the most soft voice that used to comfort me at night and put me into peaceful sleep most of the night. But now I was just terrified. I bet my eyes were very wide like two golf balls and skin as pale as snow.

“Grace is that really you?” I asked unsure and prayed I was hallucinating or my maids will be here any moment to wake me up from this so real dream.

She chuckled at me like I was said the most absurd thing ever and gracefully floated my way. I was always fascinated by her grace, so magnificent and perfect.

“Ofcourse honey!” she replied in a chirp and motherly tone. She drew me into a hug and I was shaking uncontrollably and her sweet sent invaded my thoughts were not helping. She was warm and comfortable.

How could this be possible? I thought shaking.

“Oh honey you are so cold.” She said mistaking my shaking from cold rather than fear and anxiousness. She rushed back outside, maybe to get some blankets?

I slid down to the floor and tried to even out my breathing I don’t want myself to have a panic attack.

I had one when I was 10, the night of my birthday when I saw ‘those creatures’ outside near the fountain. I could not even my breathing out. I tried to breath but it was like my lungs were constricting and squeezing painfully and restricting them to gulp in oxygen.

The door opened and someone gasped and I heard faint footsteps. I laid there clutching my chest. My vision started to blur and I saw black spots forming in front of my eyes. I curled myself into a fetal position to reduce the pain that was threatening to cover my whole body.

A pair of muscled and strong arms enveloped me and laid me on my back straightening me. My mouth came in contact with something soft and warm, that made my lips tingle. It pushed some air in my mouth, that filled my lungs and my eyes snapped open. I stared into a pair of dark eyes that were filled with worry. I gasped as I realized he pushed air into my lungs with his mouth.

I was also amazed at how soft and moist those lips were and it made my sigh in amazement.

“Thank God she is okay. Thank you Vincent.” A soft voice said relieved.

I felt my mind working and I suddenly was, once again, of my surroundings. I sat up right and narrowed my eyes at this ‘Vincent guy’. I pushed his chest with my palms, ignore the hard muscles that made my skin tingle and stood up on unbalanced feet.

“How dare you guys do this to me? How dare you?” I said angrily and glared at both of them.

I stood up, my world was spinning and I saw every color mixing in front of my eyes. I blinked few times to stop the spinning and was glad when my eyes started to focus.

“You need to calm down Alexis honey. The portal travel can be tiring.” She said in the same soft voice.

“How could you grace? Why did you let him bring me here? What are you doing here? I thought-, I thought you.” My voice broke restricting me to speak those words.

“That I died.” She completed the sentence and I saw amusement in her eyes.

Was this all a pathetic joke for her? I thought amazed.

“yes.” I spoke unsure.

“Well you need to sit down to listen to this honey.” She said and motioned to me to sit on the bed.

I robotically sat on the bed with stiffness and Vincent placed a shawl on my shoulder and a warm comforter on my legs.

“explain.” I said stiffly and I had a feeling whatever she was about to say will change my life forever.

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i am so sorry i took so long to write this chapter, but i am completly engrossed to complete my first book. then i will continue it.

love,

Aliza.