Raped by my stepfather

What should I do?

When he died my mom had a job but she didn't tell me.Only thing I could remember was her late night, She use to come home at 3 in the morning but leave in 1 in the evening.But that's when I melt my crack up stepdad. He was old,stinking, bald head, and didn't look that good if you ask me.When my mom leave he would stare at me and look at my body.The only place I felt comfortable at is our hiding place.I would go there if I feel alone or afraid of someone or something but one night my mom was going out to work and my fuck over stepdad was druck.After hearing the awful sounds my mom and step was make I felt like vomiting all over the place.After when my mom leaves ,he comes up the stairs,knocking over picture and vase. He then look over to my room door and walked slowly toward me.He gave me a massive hug and kissed my head.As a child
I didn't think anything of it.He got angry, hit me, felt me up, did something else... i don't remember it all.The next thing I knew he had his hand over my mouth, flipping me over and stripping me naked.I couldn't do anything.I tried to scream but my neighbors couldn't hear me.My step dad pinned me down .He grabbing my hair and call me my mom name.He kelp calling me "Madison" them he would call me by my real name Annie" When my mum came home he snogged the face off her, I felt fiscally sick.As he left he whispered in my ear if you tell anyone they won't believe you, you will be taken away and your mum will stop loving you.He told me that if i said anything, everyone would "know" it was MY fault, because of how i looked. I could do nothing be cry. I had no idea how to felt.For my damn self I didn't thinks he would touch me.There would no one to help me out and there no way out.Because no one on this earth deserves to feel like no one cares.