Chronicles of Desire

Time-bomb.

It was like a time-bomb set into motion.

I remember when I started having these feelings of regret. I remember thinking and wondering how someone could even regret their love for an angel. A creature of true beauty and elegance. I don't think I'd ever be able to forget the love I had for My Angel... Truly the epitome of perfection.
But alas, I could never allow myself to indulge in a luxury of that nature.

We knew that we were destined to explode.

We were like the sun and the moon,  My Angel and I. Two beings set to occupy the same space, but at different times. The sun... An object of light and warmth, a symbol for new light in the heat of summer - yet so dangerous. The living rays could burn, blind, and even kill. I always thought of myself as the sun; a single being admired by all, yet also feared by those who knew of it's true potential.
Then came My Angel, my moon. A sentient body drifting around the earth, using the sun's light to provide comfort in our darkest hours. Bringing joy to children, watching over lazy lovers.
It guides the lost and the lonely - and yet, it is so cold.

If I had to pull you out if the wreckage.

I'd never forget the days we made those promises. Nor the days that I broke them.

You know I'm never gonna let you go.

I'll never forget those lonely nights where I'd made My Angel cry. I never meant any of what I said, I was too in love. I've never had the courage to admit that though... I probably never will. Nonetheless, I'd like to think it was extremely obvious. I always tried to convince myself that My Angel knew of my feelings.
I did it that way because I knew that once I said it, there was no going back
God,  I wish I'd said it.

Gonna lose it, let's diffuse it.

I never thought someone that gentle and kind would ever reach their breaking point. I never planned on hearing those words that brought my whole world crashing down. I knew it was all for the best though. An angel like that deserved far better than what I was able to give. We had an unseen tension between us, we never addressed it, yet we always knew that it was there, we could feel it.
We couldn't postpone the inevitable forever.

But I need it, wouldn't have it any other way.

I knew our cycle wouldn't last forever. One day, My Angel would decide that enough was enough. That just maybe, every negative thing other people said about our relationship was true. That we would never be able to live happy lives.
There was no picket fence for us. There is only so much a single person is willing to put themself through.