Chronicles of Desire

Undisclosed Desires.

I want to reconcile the violence in your heart.

My whole life changed after I met My Angel. I saw the world in a newer, brighter, more fulfilling light. I saw myself in a new light.
Those long moments of silence where my head was overrun with thoughts of self-mutilation and rage were replaced with endless periods of bliss. If another like My Angel exists then the one who is lucky enough to get them sure is in for a lot. At first I couldn't fully comprehend what was happening. My life had its ups and downs but all I cared about at the time was that I had My Angel with me for the entirety of the ride.
What a pity it is, seeing as that never happened.

I want to recognize your beauty's not just a mask.

The term "beauty is only skin-deep" really lost its meaning when The Angel became part of my life. I was shown an intimacy that I'd never had the opportunity to experience from another. To say that my mind was blown would be far short of an understatement. I finally understood the feelings my peers would gush about during our adolescence.

I want to exorcise the demons from your past.

For the first time in what could've been an eternity, I was able to open myself up to another, to share my thoughts and feelings. In exchange, The Angel shared with me. We became almost inseparable, we were prepared to take on any risks that crossed our paths full force. We were ready for any curve balls that could have been thrown at us.
What we weren't prepared for was when My Angel picked up on a shred if doubt that I thought I had left far behind.
We weren't prepared for when My Angel started developing the feelings that had plagued me throughout my developing years.

I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart.

As My Angel started calling down the spiral into oblivion, I started questioning what had caused this. I started regaining the thoughts I hoped were buried and long forgotten.
What if I was the cause of those thoughts that tormented My Angel in the dark corners of rooms or flitted across the edges of their vision?
Finally, The Angel decided that everything was too much. I wish I could understand now what I didn't understand then. But oh, calamity! I'm still left in the dark as to what happened so many years ago. Maybe then, I'd have been able to change what I did, The Angel could've changed what was said.