Chronicles of Desire

First Kiss.

I never thought I'd find a love like this.

Have you ever felt like your whole world has stopped the second you saw another person? The air around you freezes and all sounds drift into the distance. The edges of your vision blur and all you can seem to focus on is that one person. The air around them glows with life and everything seems to bask in their radiance. Then your breath feels like it's been sucked from your body as you meet eyes with them. You realise that you've been staring for longer than what would be considered socially acceptable... And yet... You don't care. That's how I felt when I first met The Angel.

There's no need to hide that feeling we get.

Opposites attract, they say. I never believed the validity of that statement until The Angel. We had those who frowned upon our interactions but most only looked on in admiration. Growing up, I was never exposed to intimacy and passion on such a level. I had always thought that it must be wrong to harbour such feelings for another. But with The Angel... I was able to see just how much beauty there is in the world.

Whenever we touch, we can't resist.

It had started off slowly. Subtle looks. Accidental touches. I started feeling the need to impress The Angel. I felt as if all other beings were a rival for my love. The Angel showed me differently. There was only one person that The Angel thought about. I learnt this late one night, when The Angel had accompanied me to a local coffee shop. As we walked hand-in-hand along the dimly lit streets, there was no doubt in my mind that The Angel felt the same about me.
Nothing could come between us.

We go back to our first date.

I wish I could take it all back. I wish I'd told The Angel exactly what I was feeling. I wish that there were no doubts in my mind regarding our relationship. I wish I always felt those emotions that ran through my mind as I looked at our interlocked fingers.

Our first kiss.

I wish I could forget the look in The Angel's eyes as we leaned towards each other that night.
Although, at the same time, I never want to forget it either.
When we touched... It didn't feel like how it was described in all those books that I'd read in my younger days - there were no butterflies, no moment of shock and questioning. Words cannot describe the ecstasy I felt in that moment. For once in my miserable, pessimistic universe, there was no doubt in my mind. I loved The Angel.