Everything and Anything

Important Update

I want to clear this up for y'all so here I go.

I am not re joining Code cookie. I quit and I will stay quit.

It was one of the hardest things I've done on here. I know that sounds kinda cheesy, but deal with it. I quit not to prove a point Nor to Do it because FK did.

I did it because of me. Not anyone else but me.

I was planning to leave before FK announced she would. I was planning on how to tell people, And pop! She says it.

I honestly didn't know half the people in Code cookie, only a few. And only talked to 3. I wasn't really comfortable with you girls. I'm not trying to offend you in any way, it's just you all had a bond that I honestly didn't share.

When some people asked me why I quit I said I didn't want to talk about it and it's true, When I was typing it on the book I was literally crying. It was hard for me to do but I think it was the right choice.

People did think I quit because of the argument me, Pep, And Luna had during a role play. I was upset about it. But that's not the reason. They brought up good points in the conversation. Too many people were joining making it impossible to show respect to its founders.

I........I......I just..........I I was jealous. I admit it. I stalk my news feed to see if people are online and what people are up to. I saw FK Commenting on Code Cookie items. So I stalked the conversations and Chapters and I feel terrible.

Finally, I brought up code cookie with FK. I feel terrible for doing it. She gave me questions and Bam! I was in. No announcement like anyone else so people didn't know. Bree gave me the login and made A role play To announce I was here. Barely anyone did comment while they were commenting on others they weren't doing it to mine.

I again hate to admit I was jealous of the bond everyone had...That I didn't. I couldn't do it anymore. So I quit.

I know.....it says you can't quit and your joined for life with a bond of friendship. I didn't do it. I am a selfish human being who doesn't deserve you guys. I don't deserve anything. I am stupid. Selfish. Greedy. Ugly. Mean. Bully. And I hate myself.

Before you tell me I'm not, Think. You don't know me. You don't know my life. And i want No one's pitty!

Now you know. You know why i quit. I'm not rejoining so far. I don't deserve to. Maybe. Maybe I will if Audrey accepts me when I'm ready. All I know is.......It just hurts. It fucken pains me to Write this. I'm crying. But you don't know that.

I. Should. Die. I should die for what I did to everyone. Before you freak out no. I'm not nor will commit suicide.

I would hurt more people one, and Two, I need to suffer in this world. Again I want no one's pity on my thoughts and actions. No one at all.

If you don't know what code cookie is, well........Then you red this chapter for nothing. This is for Code cookie. I don't feel comfortable Going on an account I'm not on anymore.

Thank you for listening. I'm sorry......

~The broken Human Being known as Dimond 😢😭😭😢