-turns on camera-
Hey guys..how was your day?
Mine was okay. I'm still having a hard time with that guy i talked about in my last video. I've tried ignoring the butterflies i get when i see him, but i can't. I don't understand why i can't just move on and find someone else. i don't get why his presence haunts me everywhere i go.
There's a quote my Nicholas Sparks that goes: "My daddy said that the first time you fall in love, changes you forever and no matter how hard you try, that feeling never goes away."
I honestly feel like i can totally relate to that quote right now. I don't know why, but i really thought he was it. i thought i was gonna be happy with him. i fell, when i knew i shouldn't have. I told myself "You're too young. You shouldn't be falling in love yet." But i did...i fell, and i fell hard. And that feeling is always going to be with me. Every time i see him, I'm going to relive the memories made, the feelings felt, the kisses shared.
I trusted that kid with my life. I don't know how i feel now. I put my heart in the hands of another, and he stomped on it. He walked all over it, stabbed it, and threw it out. He left me to deal with the pain all on my own. I thought he loved me, but clearly i was wrong.
-sniffles-
He came up to me today...he tried to apologize to me again, but i'm not giving in. i need to move on, because i know if i give in, i'm just going to get hurt again.
-sighs-
I have to go. I love you guys. Thank you
-blows kiss and turns off camera-
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Non-FictionMy name is Ileana, people call me illy. These are vlogs about my life Some stories are personal and sad, and some are just straight out random. I hope you enjoy :)
