HIM And I

Insecurity ( 28 )

Am I really making their relationship go down? I just started having this though that maybe I should let them enjoy their love/like life a bit more before adding complications. Yet, here I am, making them even more. But don't worry. I bet the end of the chapter will make up for the shit crap I would write in the beginning.

BLAKE'S POV :

After dragging that son of a bitch into my house and laying him on one of the beds in the spare room, I locked the door and sat on my bed, indicating Ally to do the same.

After making sure that she was finally settled I figured that she was nervous. She was bouncing her leg at such a speed I doubt that even a vibrator could.

"Are you okay? What was that?" I asked.

She fidgetted with her hands for a few seconds before answering "he... He was following me. I mean, he like, started chasing me, I don't know when, but then after some time I figured and started running. I ended up in the alley you saw me in. He... He said he wanted to have fun with me-" suddenly her eyes had that fierce look back, just like she had when she was beating the crap out of that poor guy. Well, not exactly poor. Okay, not at all poor.

"And that was when I had had enough. So when he tried to close the distance between us," I tightly fisted my hands, controlling my anger, since she didn't let him touch her, and tried to keep my anger out of my facial expressions.

"I went back to the times when Raph used to teach me how to defend myself. But you know, he wasn't a trained fighter. Who ever sent him must have thought that I wouldn't fight back. I mean, duh, look at me. I usually don't seem like a fighter." she finally ended.

The clock in my brain had started ticking. Robesphirre. It had to be him. Who else would do it. I swear if he sends another person behind ger, I will literally kill him. I know Ally is stubborn as hell and if she has decided something, even god can't chande it, and here I am only a human. Yet I decided to give it a try.

"Um... Ally, how about we maintain some distance between us for... Distance between us. Not like a break up or anything, just nothing public. What say?" I asked, though I knew the reply, and now I knew to completely stay away from a pissed Ally. You never know what she might end up doing. Also, never to f*ck around with her.

I was able to see the mood change within her. How her breathing was deep, like she was controlling her anger, and how she had firmly held on to the bed. This wasn't anything that was gonna end up soon, since now she had even closed her eyes, trying to get a grip on her temper.

"You know what," she said in a really calm voice, but I knew that iy was just the calm before the storm.

She again took a deep breath, but instead of breathing out normally, she decided to speak. "F*ck off." now she was screeming.

"Is it only me or do you not want us to continue. Do you even like me? For fucks sake Blake, why do you want this, us, to end. Tell it to me straight away. Do you like me or was I just a fool to think so. Do you think you are just fucking around, cause if you think so, Blake" she pointed her finger right where my heart was, her temper no longer anywhere near in control, and continued, "I will personally see that you would be buried 200 feet under the ground. And no, don't even ask me how I'd do so. Now answer me, Blake. Do. You. Like. Me.?" I usually didn't like to be told what to do. It brought back old memories. But right now, I didn't care about it one shit. I needed to prove it to her how much I freaking love her. Love her? No. I just like her a lot. I can't fall in love with anyone. I like her, and I need to prove it. Yes.

I not so slowly, actually very roughly, pilled her closer to me and made her sit into my lap. With her straddling me, I roughly kissed her. I put all my anger and every other emotion, including that so called liking, into it.

She not much later, deepened the kiss, by putting both her hands in my hair and pulled it hard, almost hurting me. But I was completely fine with it. I needed it. I pulled her impossibly closer to me. I was able to feel her heart beat, and it was racing as fast as fine. God! I slightly groaned, feeling her very lightly rubbing herself onto me. The way she makes me feel, crave her, it's something no word can explain.

It's insane.

Finally we pulled away to breath, yet our faces were hardly am inch away from each other. I whispered " I do really like you. Please keep your insecuriyies aside around me. You don't need them. I just want to keep you safe. Away from this life. Away from a world full of deaths. My mother is in ICU because of my dad. My uncle killed some guy just because he became a good friend of mine. My sister died. My father died. Do you really think that the people I like live? Do you? My life's hell, Ally. Hell. And I don't want you to enter hell. Yoy deserve heaven. Do you understand me? Just this once, think like I would. What would you do if you were in my shoes?" I asked her, spilling the truth.

She took a deep breath. "My life involves death too, Blake. Just that I was scared to tell you. You would leave me if I told you. Atleast you weren't a cause for someone's death. I was. I am. I am the cause of the death of my dad, Blake. My dad, the person I loved more than anyone else. The person who did everything he could to make me feel happy. I killed him. I was the reason he died." she started sobbing. I held her against me and let her sob on my shoulder, rubbing her back.

I never knew that. She had never said anything about her personal life to me. Nothing deep about her. Especially her dad. I know she wouldn't be the reason for her dad's death. Maybe she was just blaming herself for something which she didn't do. I needed to know what exactly had happened. Also, this was something strange since she never cried. I realised that I saw 2 more sides of hers that you wouldn't normally see, the fighter and the weak Ally.

I tried to console her, but not knowing what I was consoling her for wasn't exactly helping much. "hey, Ally, it's okay. I'm sure it wasn't your fault. Come on. Past is past. It's okay..." I tried, but realised that I had utterly failed. Atleast she had chuckled, so maybe not so much in vain, afterall.

After she had sobered up a bit, I asked her, "Do you wanna talk about it. You know I'm right here. I won't disapper."

"You won't?" she asked again, hesitantly.

"Of course I won't. Do you really think that I'd judge you for something that took place before I came into picture?" I tried to mock fake hurt. She slighly smiled through her tears.

"Okay, so here's what had happened..."

A/N: Hey guys, I'm back. So did you like this chapter. I got many comments saying that they were happy since they started dating. Also, did you guys realise that I started to make chapters longer? Yay! I'm proud of myself.

Also, in the next chapter Alexandria's past will be revealed.

I need to get the answers on whose POV do you guys prefer more - Alexandria's or Blake's. Don't forget to comment your view.

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