Drifting (Before You Exit fan fiction)

August 31, Sunday

9:53 p.m.

I bit my lip as I reached for the branch just above my head. I forcefully hauled my body towards the tree and made my way inside the little tree house. Its practically just hours before my birthday and I don't have any plans in celebrating them. Eversince that break up, i just can't seem to pull all of my strings together anymore. I've drastically changed. And trust me, its the bad kind of change. I'm just probably not that strong enough to convince myself that it's over. That he's never coming back. But a part of me still believes that there was still a chance for me. For us. And pretend that none of this ever happened. It would go back to the way it was. But it's just impossible.

The way he held my hand. The way he played with my hair while my i lay at rest on his lap. The way he tells me jokes. The way he kiss me. The way everything seemed to fall right into place when he came to my life. But that's all over.

I have always managed to put on a smile and convince other people that i was over him.Even though I looked like I was all okay, there was an ache deep inside. An ache that only him could heal, but that's impossible now. I still remember that night when it all started. when my world began to change.

We just finished watching a movie and he was walking me home. As we neared the park, he abruptly stopped.

"What's wrong dude?" I teasingly asked him.

He didn't answer. Instead, he just walked towards the fountain and sat on one of the benches.

From that moment, I knew.

I knew what he was thinking.

I knew the reason he stopped.

I knew why he's been acting so distant lately.

I knew the answers to all my questions.

I knew what he was going to say and I'm afraid of hearing it.

I'm afraid to know that I was such a fool.

That park was the exact same place where he went with his ex girlfriend Megan. This was the place where they'd had a lot of their memories together for 17 months. Everything we've been through was probably something he thought of as comfort. But not to me.

We stayed silent. Only his constant steady breathing was audible. There was nothing to distract my eyes and keep the tears from falling. So intead, I just closed my eyes and rested my head on top of his shoulder. I wish we could stay like this forever and never have to deal with whatever he's going to say to me.

His body shifted and faced me. I realized that a fresh batch of tears were escaping my eyes and I couldn't help it. He wiped my tears away and took one heavy breath.

He opened his mouth and I don't think I can stand whatever words are coming out of it.

"Sienna, I know this will be hard for the both of-" But I cut him off

"Look Xander, I already know what you're going to say

"I know that we've been spending a lot of time together and I've gotten to know you so well. Within a short time, you found comfort in me and told me a lot about your past and your family problems.

"And I can see that you're trying your best to give back to me the same fondness that I have for you. But we both know that it isn't going to work out between us if we both know that you're still unsure of what we have. I understand that you're going through a lot but i don't think I can be somewhat of just a safe haven for you and nothing more."

I let the tears flow heavily. I don't care how messed up I look. Trying to look good outside is not gonna make me feel any better on the inside.

"Sienna, I really appreciate everything you've done for me and how you stayed with through all of the things I'm going through. And with that, Thank you"

He kissed my forehead, and with that, we parted ways. FOREVER.

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Hey Guys! Christine here! ;)) so umm, how was it? It's really short right now, because its like the prolouge of some sort, idk, sorry :P

i really hope you enjoyed it, and tell me if i should continue this story will 'ya?? :))))

bye for now!!! :* ^^