( c.a.p )

I wish

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I still love you, and to be honest, nothing could change that. We were just something I couldn't handle because we were so strong and I don't know what I would do if we broke, so I got scared. But I'm sorry that I hurt you, but i had to protect me. I don't know why, because nothing was coming to hurt me, but I knew if you ever did, I wouldn't believe it before it was too late. And I would be stuck being alone and loving myself. I just don't know. We had issues, and I wanted you to feel what I felt. But you did. And I just realized a couple weeks ago how much I truly needed you.

And I hate to see you, you won't even look me in the eye. And that hurts, because that's all you ever did. You showed me that your love was all I ever needed to be happy. And I'm sorry. I'll always run back to you. 

No one will know how much I truly needed and loved you and honestly its so sad, because I feel weak if I fix us. But there is no us, it's just me. And I wish I could change that.

- c.a.p. 

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