AN: I'm not dead btw just stuff is happening :P
Bella's pov
Today is different, I'm laying in bed and I can't get out. My breath starts to quicken. I. Know. I was having an anxiety attack from everything that happened. I break down completely. I start to throw things. I start throwing all of my clothes and started to rip them. I even took a bat to my wall and started to hit it with all of my might. I couldn't handle it anymore. This isn't me anymore. I am gone. I don't think I will be able to swim up to the surface.
TRIGGER WARNING>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
I grab my razor and sit in my bathtub. I cry I cut deeper and deeper, until my arm goes numb. I take a whole bottle of pills and spilt 9 of them on the floor. I took some water and swallowed them. A couple minutes later my body started going numb. My eyelids where growing heavier and I couldn't fight it any longer. I closed my eyes and let darkness take over me.
Kayden's pov
I was going to Bella's house as a surprise. When I was half way up the stairs I heard a thud. I ran up to Bella's room, but she wasn't there. I tried going in the bathroom, but something was blocking it. When I finally got into the bathroom. I found a bloody passed out Bella. I call 911. I tried picking her up but I was to weak from the chemo. I layed down next to her and held her. What if she's gone I kept thinking. When the ambulance came two people got her into the ambulance and I hopped in beside her. When we got their they rushed her away. I ran after her, but 2 doctors stopped me. My breath started to quicken. I was having a panic attack. I shouldn't be having those with cancer it makes me more weak. I sit in the chair and wait. Just wait.
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A Secret Journal
FantasíaBella is a 15 year old girl who is trying to survive high school little does she know the many struggles of it aye okay there is some twists and turns on the way WARNING if you have a problem with reading about self harm there will be a little bit o...
