The Tragedy of My Prime

The Beginning of It All

When I was younger, I would always feel like I wasn't pretty enough to hang around the cool kids. In elementary school during recess, I would always sit in the back of the cafeteria with my friend, Demetrius. Demetrius and I met in 3rd grade, Ms. Taylor class. He was my home boy. We did everything together ride our bikes to school, played kickball and foursquare, cheat off each other's homework, & still kids food of their plate. Suddenly, we weren't so close anymore. Around this time, we were in the 6th grade. We were about 2 days away from Summer Break. Everyone was so lit ..We had a food fight, kickball match, & a fight all in the same day. That got everyone hyped about Summer Break. Demetrius & I planned to go to Ms. Kay (The old lady across the street who selled pickles, pig feet, pickle sausage & chips out of her house) after school to get some snacks. That all changed when Demetrius mom came to the school to get him because it was an "emergency". I figured he would come right on back to school but .. he didn't. After School, I went to the bike station to get my bike & go home and check on Demetrius. I rushed home & stopped by his house but something was totally strange. No cars were in his yard, the mailbox was literally in the street, the bathroom curtains were on the front porch. It was like a ghost was living there .. What happened to my bestfriend? I went home and asked my mama what happened to Demetrius. She said "Oh, that reminds me he left a note for you." My heart dropped when I opened it .. I just knew something was wrong !!!! 😪 I started crying and shaking and I ran into the room with the note balled up in my hand. I laid on the bed & began to read the note .. "Dear Lexi, I'm so sorry I had to leave you like this .. My mom came to the school and rushed me home & told me I had to pack all my things up FAST because we had to move to Columbus, Ohio. I can't believe I'm leaving you, we have been friends for a while.. & I was just beginning to ask you to be my girl because of the talk we had the other day. I asked my mom could we come back to visit & she said no .. not ever .. I'll miss you .. I'm so sorry." Living in southwest Georgia was a long way from Ohio & I just knew that'll be my last time seeing or hearing from him. I cried all night and I didn't even go to school the next 2 days because I was just that sad. I can't believe.. he was gone but I had a life to live so I just moved on... I'm in the 12th grade now and I'm living life to the fullest. My mom and I moved wayyyy across town .. basically starting a new life lol. I just met Hakeem, a college student, at our rivalry basketball game against Cairo. I was head over hills for him. Everything he asked me to do .. I did it. I just got a job at the local pizza place so I had a little income coming in. He would always use me to give him gas money, buy him the new Jordans every month, polo shirts, pay his phone bill and buy his food everytime we went out. I know, I know.. I know what y'all are saying. "Why are you with this nigga?" "You see he is clearly using you?" But y'all don't get it .. I blinded me so I couldn't see what type of person he really was. It wasn't his "dick" game, it was the things he told me. Remember what I said earlier about me thinking I wasn't prettier than the other kids? Well he didn't treat me like I wasn't. He would always text me sweet things .. telling me I was beautiful.. leaving notes on my car .. coming to my job just to tell me he loved me. He did all of that .. so I just knew this nigga loved me. Well, I was wrong. He stayed cheating on me & he even had a lil thing going on behind my back with my bestfriend. But yesss, I still stayed with him. One night, I was at my girl Keundra's house & we were just chilling on Facebook like we usually do. Soooo, Hakeem called me & asked me could he go to a party. & I said "hell no .. you can't go to a party .. especially if it's a college party cause those bitches ain't nothing but thots waiting to get a tater tot" .. & he said "babe where are you?" .. "I'm at keke house boy" I said .. & he took a deep breath "ahhh okay man. I'll stay home and study babe .. I love you .. " .. "aww I love you too .. I'm going to sleep bye bae" I said. So, I fell asleep. About 2 in the morning Keundra woke me up... "Bitchhhhh yo man is at a party with that horse face bitch sharkeisha !!! It's on Facebook.. he went live Guh !! Wake yo ass up" .. so I got up & said "bitch hold up .. lemme check his page" .. that nigga blocked me. I was furious!! Keke handed me her phone & I clicked on the video. Sharkeisha and Hakeem was outside dancing & she had her booty all on him .. & he seemed to like it too !! I looked in the background & the building seemed very familiar. & Keke said " come on Guh put on yo fighting clothes and bring your hammer and let's go show out.. I know where this place is" I jumped out of bed & put on my joggers & my YMCA shirt and grabbed my hammer & me and keke were on our way. As we were getting closer to the party, I started noticing buildings and houses. I just didn't know what they were. Keke was going 102 mph so hell I didn't get a chance to look at anything. We finally got there .. & we jumped out the car & started going in on everybody. "WHERE THE HELL IS HAKEEM!??!? HAKEEEEMMM I KNOW YOU HERE !!!" Sharkeisha runs outside .. "bitchh what you doing !?!? That's my man I'll slap yo fat ass" she screamed. " no hoe .. step closer I'll put a fat ass knot on your forehead with my hammer" I yelled. & Sharkeisha sung at me but she missed .. Keke hit her first then I hit her so decent him with my hammer. & it was on then. Sharkeisha vs me and Keke. Sharkeisha had Keke at first put we straight demolished her ass. Everyone was outside screaming.. & About 3 niggas grabbed me about Keke .. I couldn't see shit because Sharkeisha sprayed me with mace. I heard Keke yell " YALL LET MY SISTER GO!! " I was screaming because I was in pain .. I knew the dude that was grabbing me was Hakeem because he was yelling at me .. "you crazy hoe .. you finna pay for this" .. I heard a door open.. & screams " EVERYBODY OUT !! " It felt like I was in a room or something.. somebody threw me on the bed and beat me so bad I passed out. I guess the next day .. I tired to open my eyes.. they hurt so bad. I felt cold, sticky, bloody & was in a lot of pain. I reached all over the bed to find out where I was .. but instead I found out I didn't have any clothes close on. I was in pain because someone beat and raped me .. but why was the bed wet ? Oh wait .. I remember now .. I had an asthma attack .. & I said " I can't breathe " & someone threw water on me. But why would Hakeem do something like this to me. Suddenly my vision came back .. I open them & I seen a someone standing in front of the dresser in front of the bed .. shaving their face. But it was Hakeem.. I tried to look into the mirror to see who it was .. I just couldn't see. The dude said .." you're a little feisty thing .. I bet you won't do Hakeem like that anymore.. I told you not to move .. or I would beat you" & He turned around.. his face turned cold .. when he looked at me .. & I just looked at him .. frozen .. I couldn't believe it .. It was Demetrius.