The one she met online ***ON HOLD*****

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-amanda-

When I got home from school I was a disaster .. all I had on my mind was one thing that I told my self I shouldn't do anymore to cut... yah u could say I had a suicidal past a little but I couldn't help it after being cheated on with 12 different girls? .. like really? .. what kinda of person does that... I went into the bathroom grabbed the razor and watched my wrist bleed....

-Josh-

I hated seeing her the way she was .. I needed to text her I felt so bad I didn't mean to break her heart like that

J: Im sorry I will always be there for you I hope you know that

A: You hurt me!! basically broke my heart how could you?

J: I know what I did and im sorry .. I didn't mean for you to hurt , I didn't want you to get to attached because I knew that we were never gonna date I just cant do it

A: Have fun with your new girl I hate you. goodbye

I sat there I really had fucked up this time ..

-Amanda-

I sat there on the floor in the bathroom sending that last message and pressing the delete button on my messages deleting everything that had to do with me and him , he had gotten me grounded but I still wanted him I should have known he was just like the rest.. I cleaned up my wrist and put on a long baggy sweatshirt so no one could see my wrist... something would come out of this ... someone new ! , and I knew how to do it .

I went into my room and pulled up the website meet me , I few  people I knew had a account on this website and my brother even had one so I decided why not ? , I mean what could be wrong with it , I will meet new people and get over josh and everything will be good! , I made an account , added pictures made a status and started talking to new people , maybe this is a good thing