The One: Gilmore Girls

All of Me

  Waking up in the morning reality begins to set back in. Logan will have to go back to his apartment today. He still has two more weeks in London and we can't afford anything going wrong and screwing up his New York move. Logan's fingers run softly through my hair and I can tell he's thinking just as much as I am. I sigh content to at least be in his arms for now.
“What's going on in that beautiful mind Ace?”
“We're adults with responsibilities. I'm not sure I'm ready to face reality just yet.”
“Being an adult isn't always so bad. I believe last night was excellent proof that sometimes it's good to be an adult.” I smile against his chest.
“That's true but in a day or two I have to leave my fiancé. The perks of being an adult will greatly dwindle.”
“We have to remember it's just for two more weeks. We've done this before Ace. We can do this.”
“You're right it's just I'm scared.”
“Scared?”
“Of facing the Lorelai inquisition alone.”
“You won't be alone I'll make sure someone is with you.”
“what?”
“First things first when does everyone leave?”
“Honor and Josh are flying out today. The boys and I are supposed to tomorrow.”
“Alright I'll talk to the boys.”
“About?”
“The four of you staying a few extra days “
“What?”
“Lorelai is going to have questions and expect answers. We should have a more solid game plan.”
“Ok but how long do you want me to stay?”
“Well that depends on the boys.”
“The boys?”
“I don't want you traveling alone. I wish you could just stay the whole two weeks but that would probably be a bad idea.”
“Yeah it probably would be.”
“I'd never be able to focus while at the office and try to rush home to you.”
“I'd get no writing done either.”
“So I'll see how long the guys can stay. Then I'll ask if anyone is free to go with you back to Stars Hollow or stay in Hartford for a few days.”
“What are they going to do there?”
“They'll be there in case things go sideways with Lorelai.”
“Logan”
“Like I said before if I can't be there one of the guys will be.”
“I don't want to screw up everyone's schedules.”
“You're not so no worrying. I'm warning you now though we are all going to be incredibly protective over you from now on.”
“I've started picking up on that already.”
“I promise you Ace I'll do whatever I can to make sure you're happy.”
“What about you? You need to be happy too”.
“You and nugget make me happy. It's all I've ever wanted.”
“Me too.”
There's no other way for me to really respond to that so I lean forward and kiss him. We are running out of time to get everyone to the airport so we have to quickly get ready and leave. We head back to London after dropping Honor and Josh at the airport and get the guys checked in at one of Finn's hotels. We decide to grab lunch at a café down the street.
“Alright boys who needs to get home and when?”
“I have no choice but to leave tomorrow. I have to be in Chicago on Wednesday” Robert responds.
“Well mate funny you should ask. Knowing you couldn't be in the states for at least two more weeks Colin and I both arranged to work from Hartford for the next few weeks.”
I'm dumbfounded. We haven't even discussed it with them yet and the guys have already rearranged their schedules just so they can be close.
“Guys I don't even know what to say.”
“Don't say anything reporter girl. If Logan can't be there we will be.”
“Thank you”
“Any time love”
“Actually Logan we were thinking we'll stay here until next Saturday.”
“Next Saturday?”
“Yeah we both have a couple things we could check on over here mate.”
“Plus we can help you pack up and organize the apartment. That way you'll be ready to go when your two weeks are up.”
“That's too much. I can't ask you guys to do that. You've done so much already.”
“We're actually being kind of selfish man. With you being back in New York we'll be able to see you more than once a month.”
“See so it's totally selfish of us.”
“Alright since you're being selfish I'll let you do it. One rule though”
“Ok what's that?”
“Well two actually. One, Ace supervises only! No lifting or packing anything. Two, keep my family fed while I'm gone during the day.”
“Of course there was never any question about that. One question though.”
“Shoot”
“Well…” Colin loos at me sheepishly “Is there anything in the apartment that should be removed while certain parties are vacant?”
“No there is nothing there that Ace hasn't seen before. I got rid of my black books and everything else after Hamburg.”
“You sure? I mean we don't want to have to deal with angry pregnant tirades about stupid men.”
“Positive. You're forgetting she lived in my place every time she's been in London.”
“Phew that's a relief. Now why don't the two of you head back. I'm sure you want  to relax and talk before things get hectic.” I hug them all.
“Thanks guys for everything.”
“Any time love. We'll ring you tomorrow.”
Once we're back at Logan's we both change into comfortable clothes. He grabs a blanket and we cuddle on the couch. I see a notebook and pen ready to go on the coffee table.
“So where should we start?”
“umm” I honestly have no idea.
“Alright how about we start with the baby. Have you been to the doctor yet?”
“I went and had the bloodwork to confirm the pregnancy. They asked if I wanted to do the first ultrasound but I didn't want to do that without you.”
“How would you feel about doing that here?”
“What my ultrasound?”
“Yeah. I think having pictures of our nugget will help us get through our week alone.”
“I don't know any doctors and I'm not sure if my insurance will cover a visit over here.”
“That's no problem. I have a few friends that could discreetly get me info on doctors and I'll cover the cost.” I realize what he's saying and get a little excited. We're going to see our baby this week.
“I would love that. I don't want you to miss anything with nugget.”
“Good because I don't plan too. Now New York, Hartford or Stars Hollow?”
“For what?”
“To live. I may work in New York but if you're more comfortable in one of the other places I'll gladly commute.” I hadn't thought about him commuting so I have to think about that for a bit. Living outside New York would mean less time with Logan. He would have to leave a couple hours earlier and wouldn't be home until late if he was able to make it home at all. I want Logan to be able to experience this pregnancy with me. I don't want him to miss out because he's going back and forth so much. Plus if we were to live in either place that would mean more opportunities for pop ins and random visits. In the city we would have a better chance of cementing our relationship on firmer ground without the fear of unexpectedly running into our parents. Not knowing how our families are going to react definitely makes me want to put a little distance between us all.
“I think it will be best for everyone if we live in New York.”
“Are you sure? I don't want your mom upset thinking I'm ripping you and nugget away from her.”
“I'm positive. With us living in the city it will allow you to be home more and not on the road commuting all the time. I don't want you to miss anything.” Logan searches my eyes to make sure I'm being honest. He's always been able to read me like a book so he knows that I mean it.
“Alright New York it is.”
“Should we rent or buy?”
“Buy. It will give us some joint property plus we will own our place if anything happens.”
“How worried are you about everyone's reactions?”
“With my family no more than usual. Honestly I'm more worried about you.”
“Me?”
“Yeah this could add a lot of stress on you and it's not good for you or the baby. Plus you were ready to walk away from me even though you loved me because you didn’t want to ruin my life.”
“I have ruined your life.”
“No Ace you haven't”
“Yes I have. You would have married Odette and your family would have been happy. They would have left you alone.”
“I wouldn't have married Odette. I know it took me a while to walk away but I would have anyways because she's not the woman I love. My family wouldn't have backed off. They would have tried to control everything that I did. Where I lived, when to have children and where to take family vacations, everything.”
“Yeah but at least they would have liked your wife.”
“They may have liked her but I never would have. I was miserable.”
“You said she became your friend.”
“She did but only because we both agreed it would never be anything more.”
“but”
“Rory you are giving me so much more than I could ever dream of. Things that I haven't thought possible since I lost you after Yale.”
“What am I giving you?” I think I already know but I'm feeling a little vulnerable and need to be comforted.
“My soul mate, partner in crime, support system and constant companion. You challenge me and with you by my side we will make sure that our kids grow up in a world full of love.”
“World full of love?”
“Our kids will never doubt how their parents feel about each other. They will never question how we feel about them. We will give them stability and a home full of love and laughter. All things I never had growing up.”
“You're going to be an amazing daddy you know that right?”
“I'm certainly going to try. I may need to be reminded every now and then.”
“I'm going to do my best to make sure you never doubt.” He smiles, kisses me and decides to move on.
“So I'm thinking that once we find a place we buy all new furniture.”
“Why? Don't you want to keep all this?”
“No I want furniture that is just ours. I didn't pick any of this out so none of it means anything to me.”
“Are you sure?”
“Our furniture will be stuff we choose together and was never shared with anyone else.” I get it then. He didn't want stuff in our home that he had shared with Odette. It made me fall in love with him just a little bit more.
“That sounds really good. It'll be great to see what we come up with.”
“It should be interesting.”
“Would it bother you if I stepped up my job search?”
“I wanted to talk to you about that but I need you to hear me out “
“Ok”
“I think you should casually look but not stress too much about it.”
“Logan I don't want you paying for everything. I'll feel like I'm not contributing.”
“I was thinking you could do some freelance work. I really want you to focus on your book so it would be easier that way. It's a really great story and I think it's important that you write it” I get what he's saying but it makes me feel a little guilty.
“Don't you dare feel guilty. You need to remember that you're growing a person and stress isn't good for you.”
“True, it's not like I'll just be sitting around.”
“Exactly. So between your book, the move, decorating and nugget the next few months are going to be hectic.”
“I wasn’t thinking about all that.”
“We can handle you working how ever you want I just don't want you to become overwhelmed and overdue it.”
“I think I'll focus on the book and do the freelance stuff if I start feeling too lazy.”
“Works for me. I'll support whatever you decide to do.”
“When should we tell everyone?” Logan sighs and thinks for a couple minutes. He seems reluctant to say anything so I jump back in.
“I'll tell my dad when I get home. He'll probably be the easy one.”
“Yeah he probably will. I still want the boys with you when you go see him though.” I shake my head but agree.
“Do you want to be with me when I tell my grandma?”
“I do. I want her to know that we are in this together.”
“Alright, do we tell Mitchum and Shira first?”
“I think we should meet in Nantucket the weekend I come home. We'll tell Emily first then fly home to tell my parents.”
“I'll make sure she knows not to say anything until we get the chance to speak to them.”
“I'm hoping we'll get support from your side. We'll probably need it to get through the meeting with mine.”
“Well I think we'll have at least my dad and grandma.”
“You should probably call your mom and let her know you won't be home until Saturday night or early Sunday.”
“I'll text her. I really don't want to answer her questions yet.” I reach for my phone and send her a quick text explaining the change of plans. Before I can even put the phone back down it dings with a response.
Ok kid but we will be talking when you get home. Are you at least alright?
Yeah I'm fine. We're just working some things out.
Alright I love you kid.
Love you too mom.
“What'd she say?”
“That we'd be talking when I got home. She also asked if I was alright and said she loved me.”
“You don’t think she'll support us raising the baby together do you?”
“I think she'll be glad that we're both trying to be there for the baby”
“but”
“But I'm not sure how she'll feel about us not only being back together but also engaged.”
“What will you do if she's against it? Are you going to pull a runner?” I know he's trying to lighten the mood but I can see how nervous he really is.
“No Logan I'm done running. You and nugget are what I want and if she can't support us then she doesn't need to be part of it.”
“I don't want you to do or say something you might regret.”
“I won't but I won't let her walk all over me about this.”
“I remember how much it crushed you last time.”
“I do too but I've grown up since then. This is my life and my family. You both come first from now on.”
“No matter what good or bad I'm here.”
“Like you said we'll get through this. Will Mitchum force you out of the company?”
“No that's one area he won't threaten me. I'm way too valuable for him to lose.”
“The one area?”
“I have no idea how he's going to react. He's loosened up a bit since grandpa died but…”
“but?”
“He's still Mitchum and this could get very ugly.”
“How ugly?”
“So ugly it's probably good that I've invested millions and have more in the bank and my own lawyers on speed dial.” Crap this could be bad, really bad.
“Ace look at me” he gently grabs my chin “just like you said you two are my family and are my priority. They can get on board or we can simply be associates at work. It's their choice so no more worrying about how they'll react.” I sigh because he's right. Worrying isn't going to change how any of our family feel about us.
“You're right let's focus on the good for now and deal with the reactions as they happen.” We decide to relax for the rest of the night. We order Chinese take out and set up a movie marathon. When the door bell rings I grab it and come back to a Logan surprise. There are red vines, pop tarts, marshmallows, mallow bars, m&m's and an apple on the table. I think I might cry. The bell rings again and this time he comes back with a pizza and hot chocolate.
“Sorry I had to sub the coffee for hot chocolate.”
“You really are the perfect man aren't you?”
“No I just know what my girl likes.”
So that's how we spend the rest of our night. Watching movies, stuffing our faces and falling asleep in each others arms.