The world around me is spinning
Skipping and jumping with happiness and joy
I want to be the happiest person alive
But I can't
I am trying, trying really hard to
become the person that everyone wants me to be.
I wish I had a magic wand to make it all right.
To make this easy
To make the cold vibe go away in just mere seconds
It's a challenge
Face it or die
I feel empty
And breakable
I can see all my flaws
I am imperfect
I am ugly
I am fat
Only I can hear my cries of pain
The pain is so much that it consumes my whole body.
The world around me is happy and I can hear their laughter of joy or maybe they are laughing at me.
No one can hear my haunting cries
No one can see my scars
Why can't they see me?
Why can't they help me?
It's like my hope is getting crushed once again.
They walk over me without even noticing me
Suffocating me with their laughs
I don't remember how to laugh anymore
But whenever I try to laugh my demons take over me
Trapping me in a place where you are not allowed to laugh
After every 80 seconds, there is a cut on my body
This time I am the evil person
No one else is hurting me
It's me who is hurting myself
Trying to erase all my flaws
I cry with hurt and pain when I get a cut
But that's the most enjoyable thing I have ever done.
It makes me overwhelm with joy and happiness
And that's the only time I laugh
A bitter laugh
That is uncontrollable
A dry laugh with no meanings held to it
But I keep up
I fight every day
These are the scars of my battle
I stay alive so that I can laugh one day
Laugh as if there is no end to it.
I stay alive so that I can be the
"Happiest person alive "
A/N ok so this is one of the longest poem I have written till now. I am not really sure about this poem I think it's not really that nice I can't say it is not really that great because none of my poem are that great. Ya so if anyone reads it pls do comment and vote. Bye
-K⚓️rusha
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