So I'm really frustrated and I dont have anyone to talk to so I decided to come back on this account. I'm sorry for not updating but I've been having a really hard time lately and I havent had time.
What I'm Frustrated With-
In November, My Grandma and my grandpa asked my mom if I could go with them to see my brother for my nephews birthday party. My mom said no because it wasnt fair to my brothers. A program that my brother is apart of is giving my younger brother the oppurnity to go to canada for a week this summer and my mom is letting him go.
I was thinking about it and I realized that it isnt fair that my mom wouldnt let me go on a trip 10 hours away from where we live for a weekend but she is letting my younger leave the country for a week. I talked to my mom about it and she said it was completely fair and started using everything I've done since I was 6 against me as I argued with her about it, which just made it worse because I started to get angry.
Then she called my grandma and told her what I said and she is against me to. I'm all alone in this and they all seem to think i'm a spoiled brat.
Another thing that started all of this is, My mom wanted to buy my brothers breand new i-pod touchs for no damn reason so she gave me her old 2nd generation i-pod touch saying that is was fair because I have a driod (which I pay for the internet on!). She had my grandma pay for one and she paid for the other, Later that night I was with my grandma while she was picking out new clothes for herself, she said she would buy me something so I went and picked out a really cute white shirt and an super cute elephant necklace (both of which togther only costed $20). I showed them to her and she told me to put the shirt back because she didnt have much money. That made me angry, She had enough money to buy my brother a $200 dollar i-pod but she didnt have the money to spend 20 on me!
I feel so left out in my family and I'm sick of it.
I'm think I'm depressed too, because all i want to do is curl up in a ball and cry.
Oh, and my mom said its fair to my younger brother to do go to canada because he gets bullied all of the time but what about me! Life isnt fun for me, No one at school talks to me and I'm constantly alone! I did say something to her about that and she told me to call my friends from my old school and hang out with them! Wtf, How is that going to help. She also mentioned that I may be able to switch to the school that they all go to which would be amazing because I really miss them and I need people to talk to.
Other things that have happened-
~I went to homecoming with my friends from my old school . It was a lot more fun than I thought it would be.
~I havent made any new friends.
~I may switch schools and go to the school mention above. I miss the people there and I will be able to talk to them about what's going on.
~My step dad and mom got to the point where they were going to get a divorce but he said he was going to change and he's been taking meds and going to cousling but lately he has been acting like a prick.
