Hi guy's!!! So this is my first book and i started it when i was in like 7th grade so the beginning chapters are not that great, but once it's finished I'll probably go back and edit them -maybe? I'm not sure yet- But please by all means still read...
"Cat you ready to go?!?!?" Felix yells from the bottom of the stairs. "Yeah I'll be right down!!!"I yell back. Felix is taking me to go camping up in the San Bernardino Mountains for the weekend to see the snow! Last time I was there was when I was 5 but what ever. Anyways I really hope I get to see it snow again. I remember one time when I was little I stayed outside until it stopped snowing it was so pretty, but I was sick for the rest if the week I didn't get to do much.
"Babe you ready?" Felix ask from behind me. " Jesus you scared me." I say. "I'm sorry but hey we have to go like right now." he says. "Okay, okay." I say grabbing my bag.
Mountains
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"This is where we're staying?" I ask looking at the cabin house in front of us. "Yeah? Do you not like it if you want I can get another cabin?" Felix ask in a worried voice. I just start laughing. "Felix babe its fine," I say "Its just when I was little we passed this exact house when we would come up here, I would think of it and wish that I could go inside I haven't thought about it until now." I say remembering when we passed the house. I wouldn't stop talking about it. Telling my mom that when I grew up I would build her a house; a house like that one where she would have everything she wanted a big living room for the family, a big kitchen so we could cook together, and a big back yard so when I had kids they had some where to play. "Cat shh stop crying." Felix says. I really need to start paying attention to what's happening around me cause I'm realizing now that I'm bawling my eyes out on the ground. "Sorry." I tell Felix. "No its okay I get it you had a rough time with your family its no big deal." He says piking me up bridal style. "What are you doing?" I ask him wiping my tears. "Carrying you inside duh." He says. I giggle in response.
"Well look at what we have here you know I was getting worried that you guys had changed your plans and gone some where else but your here now." John says. "What the hell are you doing here your suppose to be dead some where in Europe." I say surprised and jump out of Felix's arms. "Is that what Andre told you that little fucker but anyways you have to come with me Joele wants you back now." he says. "What who the hell is Joele? and do you really think I would just up and leave to go to someone I don't even know with someone who abused me and blamed the death of my mother on me you're insane John!" I yell the last part. "What you think I liked seeing my baby girl in pain did you really think I would do something like to you," I cut him off. "No I didn't think you would do that to me I thought you loved me but as a child you think anything of your parents when they're hurting you! You actually made me believe it was my fault that mom died; 3 fucking years believing that and then Carter came and told me not to believe you and I trusted him just like I trusted you but you want to know something John 2 years ago in my room on the floor I was raped and abused-" John cuts me off now "I NEVER raped you I would never think of doing that to you you're my daughter." he says. "I never said you raped me John but you want to know who did your perfect Carter and you know what else he also abused me just like you." I say with tears streaming down my face again.
"Why didn't you ever tell me?" he ask as his voice cracks. "When was I suppose to tell you! you were always gone doing god knows what! there was never time to tell you at home you were either drunk, hitting me, or sleeping after your hangover! and when he raped me it was that night when you had to come get me from the hospital." I say to him as more tears come rolling down my face. Memories came flooding in as I cried harder. I get pulled into a hard chest and instantly know its Felix. "shh its okay you'll be fine stop crying princess pretty girls like you don't cry." he whispers to me. "Catalina look I'm sorry for not being the dad you deserved okay I am and I never meant to blame yours mothers death on you but there is something you should know," he says pressing his lips together as tears roll down his face.
"Your mom wasn't hit by a drunk driver Joele and Carter's dad sent someone from his gang to kill me but they killed your mother instead because they thought I was the one in the car Caters dad was in love with your mother." He says. "I don't mean to interrupt this family conversation but what the fuck is wrong with you! you blamed your wife's death on your daughter but you knew it wasn't her fault it was yours! and instead of trying to protect them you stayed put and watched as everything came tumbling down in front of you!" Felix yells. "You know nothing about this family! and my decisions!" John yells. "Anyone can tell that you're a coward and weak!" Felix yells back. "Well anyone can tell that your nothing and definitely don't deserve a girl like Catalina." John says, "What did that leave you speechless well its the Fucking truth you're a worthless piece of shit and Catalina shouldn't even give a damn about you." John continues finally without yelling. "Shut up John!!! I don't even get why the hell you're talking cause I know for sure that mom deserved a better fucking husband after what you just told me now I want you to leave." I say pointing to the door. "Are you serious?" He ask as if he doesn't believe what I'm saying, "Yes I'm serious does it look like I'm joking?" I say back a little more harsh then I intended it to. "Oh and John don't bother to come looking for me unless you're really dying this time." I say and shut the door.
"He's right you know." Felix says from behind me. "No he's not Felix...Are you really going to start to question our relationship because of what John said? Felix You may think I deserve more and so does John but I don't want more I want you and you only I don't give a damn about what John says you're everything that I could ever ask for and I've gone through to much shit so you can come out and start to ask yourself if you're good enough for me." I sigh because it's really bugging me that Felix is letting John's words get to him. "Look Cat I know this is frustrating but what if something else happens to you because of me again? What if you actually don't wake up next time? I could never live with my self if I knew that I was the cause of what happened to you I love you to much to ever lose you." He says as he puts his arms around me. "Then don't try to push me away because of what some idiotic psychopath says Felix I love you too you know and I could never live without you... you're my everything now too." I say looking him in the eye.
Hey Guys!!! Well I hope you liked it and again I am so sorry for not updating in a really long time I've been busy living my life and well that's all I really have to say I love you all and until next time!!
