RANT BOOK [Malay Version]

Uni's Life

2017 says hi, 2016 says bye.

By today, it's almost one semester since I've started my degree. And yea, I wanna share with you guys the ups and downs of it.

Living here is really different with what I've seen in dramas or movies tak kiralah Malay or English or Korean or even Japanese. They're all pure lies directed by the director.

Well, in my case it is...

Usually we will see the lead actor has good bffs which will accompany her to the rest of her life. Also, if she is having trouble or something, a knight in shining armor will come and rescue her.

LOL.

In my situation, I haven't found anyone who I could label as my bff, not even one person. Not even one person that I'm comfortable with. Yes, I do change myself to be accepted into a group of so-called-friends, but failed. I don't feel the bonding between me and them. Maybe it is because we haven't knew each other for a semester yet, just maybe.

Also, it is upsetting to know no one care for you here. Not even roommates nor cousemates.

I once having an upsetting stomach and muntah-muntah, no one even care or took a glance at me or asked me if I'm okay. When I'm having a high fever, no one asked if I took my medicine yet. Also, ni bukan nak riak, but when I gave them a shawl each, no one even thanking me for the present.

I got quite a low immune system which makes me having high fever every month (it's tiring.. tapi takpe kita fikir positif boleh hapuskan dosa kecil). But none of my coursemates asked me why am I absent from class that morning or something like that. I don't get my hopes high from my coursemates, of course. But at least, a chat from the group of so-called-friends that I'm hanging out with would be nice.

I'm a human, too.

Maybe it is the time where I should wake up and realize that no one has a time to take care of you when they also have their problems to take care of.

Grow up, vicky...