He Was Once Mine

The best part.

"If you want me to beg for it. Then I'm begging you to say 'I
do'." He said.

Tears kept on rolling down my face but my smile didn't fade away. Instead, it got wider. Hearing him say those words, I felt warm and contented. Maybe I will feel more happiness, if it is me who he is with now. Infront of everyone saying our vows. Unfortunately No. It isn't me but the girl who he truly loves. Sunny.

I'm really happy for him. For them. I am sure that I made the right decision to let him go.

Naniniwala ako na hindi porke't gusto mo ang isang tao ay dapat maging kayo. Pwede naman mag mahal pamula sa malayo hindi ba? At hindi rin ibigsabihin na pinakawalan mo ang taong mahal mo ay hindi mo na sya mahal. Kaya mo nga sya pakakawalan dahil mahal mo sya. Dahil alam mong iyon ang makakabuti para sakanya.

I thought it was enough that I can make him smile. That I can cheer him up. Akala ko okay na yung ako yung mapagsasabihan nya ng mga problema at hinanakit nya.

I can clearly remember his rants about his dad being with his other woman, and how his mother suffered. I can still picture his furious handsome face. How his jaw clenched while cursing every single bad words that he can say.

What a beautiful beast in my eyes.

Napangiti nalang ako sa mga naaalala kong memories na nabuo naming dalawa. At least I was there when he needed someone the most. At least nagkaroon ako ng kahit konting parte sa buhay nya. At least masasabi kong minsan ko din syang napangiti.

"I will always do." Sunny replied. Umalingawngaw ang palakpakan ng mga bisita nila. They are all smilling as they watch Rage and Sunny kiss.

I looked at him as he kiss her lovingly and desperately. No lie, I feel pain in my heart. But It's been a while since I saw his eyes glow. I know he's truly happy with his great love now. So even though I'm in pain, the feeling of being proud and seeing your love happy is greater. Nasasapawan kumbaga.

Kahit pinapanuod ko lamang sila dito pamula sa malayo ay kitang kita ko parin ang masasaya nilang muka. Kahit ang bilang na mga bisita nila ay natutuwa sa nangyaring kasalan. After all, they already have an angel. Dapat lang din na sila hanggang sa huli.

I knew from the very start that he fell for her, nuon palang sa mga panahon na galit sya at gusto nyang maghiganti. He instantly fell.

Sa haba ng panahon na nakasama ko sya ay tingin ko ito ang pinaka masayang itsura nya ang nakita ko.

"What are you doing?" I asked as I hug him from the back. Nag papasalamat nalang ako na hindi nya tinanggal ang braso kong naka palupot sakanya.

Ilang linggo narin ang nakalipas pamula nang sabihin nya sakin ang totoong nararamdaman nya. But I chose to stay. Mahal ko sya. I won't let him go kahit nasaktan nya ako.

He realized that what he feels for me is only a sister love. How stupid is that I thought. Who would kiss their sister? But then wala akong nagawa. Maswerte na lang ako at honest sya sa nararamdaman nya at hindi nya ipinagkait sakin iyon.

Bago pa man nya aminin ay alam ko naman na talaga iyon. Alam ko na hindi naman nya ako mahal kagaya ng pagmamahal ko sakanya.

But I chose to be blind. I love this man and I can't let him go. Not after all of these years that we've been together. Hindi ngayon na hindi na kami mga bata.

Napalingon sa parte ko si Logan kaya't agad kong pinunasan ang luha ko at ngumiti. Naglakad sya papalapit sakin.

"You came huh?" naka ngisi nyang sabi. Sya din kasi ang dahilan kung bakit ako nakapunta dito.